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2011-11-04T23:51:00.002+08:00

I can finally say that I am halfway through Os(;

The papers have been alright so far, I guess. Not dying too much. Just hope the best would come out.

Anyway, onto the movie In Time. Fantastic move. Fantastic. Brilliant. Wonderful. Amazing movie. The movie had a very strong plot, and very strong themes being displayed. Good piece of work.

However, a lot of things set me thinking because of the movie. Like it displays the Capitalist' way of work. And then what they were actually doing was to make it into Communist. You guys have to watch the movie to find out!

Geog P2 and History's next. Gonna be tough but hey, with God all thing's possible(:

2011-10-23T20:05:00.005+08:00

In conjunction with my English examination tomorrow, I will try my best to speak in proper English.

Today's post will be circled around this word:

Ferly

Noun -
1. Something unusual, strange, or causing wonder or terror.
2. Astonishment, wonder

Adjective -
1. Unexpected; Strange; Unusal

I had had half a thought, at the outset, of telling him about the ferly, my glimpse of the palace. But I couldn't bring myself to it.
-- Clive Staples Lewis and Fritz Eichenberg, Till We Have Faces: A Myth Retold
Lord, ye'll have all the folk staring as if we were some ferly.
-- Margaret Oliphant, Kirsteen

Alas, the time has come.

I could remember what I was doing a year ago. A year ago my exams had just finished, and I felt a great sense of satisfaction, heaving a sigh of relief. My results have came back, and my effort which was poured out across my examination marks. What a great feeling it was.

And now, the time has come. I prepared ten years of my education for this. I am not willing to give up now, and I won't. I have God on my side too (: Ferly. I can't seem to use the word. Ah well. I look at myself, my grades. Smile.

That was 4 days ago.

~~English. Math P1.~~

The first week of exams are about to end. There has been a lot going through my mind. I've been wondering. What would I do if, I told you I loved you? No one in general. I remembered how much it sucked when it becomes one-sided.

Awkward. That's how it is.

I've just realised. I need to find someone beautiful, and not hot. That's how it is. And someday I would find that someone. Someone. Haha it feels weird talking about these kinda stuff. I thought that people who whine about these kinda stuff are really gay. I guess its just quite fun to talk about it hehe.

Takes your mind off what's coming next. It's nice to live in denial. For the moment.

Thank God for the papers that has just gone by.

2011-10-08T00:10:00.003+08:00

I am annoyed at it. I hate it. I detest it.

I'm just so annoyed with myself. Why wasn't I smarter? Why did I have to depend on tuition so much?

Mummy's angry because I spend a lot of her cash on tuition. At least I'm not wasting it. It's tearing me apart. I want to do well. I ~~want~~ need to get my 7 points.

Oh God, why is it so hard? I'm in utter distress, and I am feeling miserable. The sky cries with me, while trying to get myself to be better at my studies.

Now I don't just have to get an A1 for Physics. I better f-ing get one. So sorry for the use of language, but I need it. On my wall, I have post-its all around telling me what I need to do, and need to learn. And I better, get my A1. I must.

Mummy and Daddy are spending too much on my tuition fees. It's crazy. It's retarded. It's absurd. I am so going to work, to pay Mum and Dad back for my tuition fees. And when I get rich, I will buy Dad a Mercedes. I am grateful to my parents for taking this sacrifice to do this. But, Mummy doesn't know how to control her temper. When she scolds, it is not to discipline but rather to relieve the stress she is under. You're not the only who's stressed up, woman.

Sigh. Oh God, I don't know what to do. I'm lost. I can't find meaning in this. Would you, give Mum more clients so that she would be able to remove the deficit, and to just support this family.

Sleep. I need sleep. I'm falling into the pit of fatigue. And at the bottom of the pit, there are the sharp edged rocks of insanity.

God. I need you. I need to depend on you. I need your strength oh God. Please protect Daddy too, as he goes into China.

2011-10-03T23:07:00.002+08:00

"Tick, tick, tick," and the clock speaks gently into our ears.

We can run away from almost anything in our lives except one thing - Time. It is that one thing that is always running ahead of us. A competitor, who we cannot overtake. A person, who we cannot beat. Time is always winning, and indeed it is not on our side.

With only 3 weeks left till the begin of our O levels, I start to ponder about a few things. Why am I taking this exam? If I screw up, then what happens next? Oh how is JC going to be like?

And then I tell myself "Dude, stop thinking. Study. You can think about them later".

It is things like these, which have such a great impact on our lives. We either make it, or break it.

Despite all the comments above, somehow, I don't feel worried, or that stressed. A little tired perhaps, but the anxiety does not win the battle. Perhaps this is what happens, when you're rooted in the love of God(:

The love of God is just simply amazing. He saved me, cured my hurt. He's the King of the world, the King of everythinggggg. Do you know Him?

That aside, I'm getting excited to finish this race. Cos after Os, Imma be a buff man. This statement testifies that I will not be lazy after O levels. If I get lazy and fat I will.. be very fat. I can't think of a proper consequence. But yes, it's training mode once again after Os(:

I'd be trying to touch my piano more. With my fingers running along the keys, I hope to produce, music. Beautiful music.

That is all the time I have today. Good luck to you, to whoever reads this.

2011-09-28T23:28:00.003+08:00

As I go blog walking, one thing that struck me that a lot of us feel hurt in our lives. People staring at us with judgmental eyes, people being hypocrites, people being mean to each other.

Why oh God, have you made humans like that?

And then I remember, its that with God, and our author and perfecter of our faith, we are made perfect(:

Yeah.

Anw I've been starting to get violent. Frig. Not cool.

I. Need. To. Stop. Sparring.

The race is ending, and the time to get buff and to not regret is coming.

2011-09-22T23:11:00.002+08:00

Yes hello world. I am here, with nothing in mind, and I shall allow my thoughts to flow.

Today I decided to study English, and learnt a few new words and phrases, and learnt (I think) how to use them:

Jolted, Ravenous, Bellowed, Contempt, Impregnated, Ether, Teeming, Prattle.

I shall attempt to write this post with every single word being used. Here goes nothing.

I was teeming with excitement when I saw food, as I felt Ravenous, craving for some curry. I bellowed my voice throughout the room, screaming the word until the ground shook.

However, the food smelt like it was saturated with Ether. Surely, the maid has been flooding her infected wound with Ether again. Giving out a sense of unsatisfaction, I told my maid sternly with a sense of contempt that I would not even eat a single grain of rice on the plate of the smell of ether was not removed.

Being a foreign worker, her English was not on the same level as ours. Her command of her language was so weak that she seemed like she was prattling all the way.

Feeling even more enraged, I stormed off. However, something made me stop in my steps. She fainted.

Her sudden lost of consciousness jolted us all.

A story made out of words that I just learnt today. Oh and apparently, Ryan impregnated Charlotte Yang, and she's a Mum now(:

And that is all I have for today.

"Cos everyday I'm studying"

And let the music surround your room now.

2011-09-15T23:39:00.002+08:00

I feel like posting today. I don't know what to say, but I'll allow my mind to just take course(:

So yes hmmm... I feel smarter all already! Hehe, well apparently I could do a slightly challenging Amath paper today, so I feel all smart. It is a good thing, feeling all encouraged to do even better.

Apparently I found out that I hardly talk to anyone already. My social life has been affected adversely because I have been spending a lot of time on my studies. Oh why thank God it's not dead. But it just seems, that conversing with people feels a little hard now. Last time, it used to be so natural. I could link from one topic to the next, and could just start a conversation with a snap of the finger. But now, it just seems that my ability the converse, has been affected by quite a bit. It's like, America being in debt. Haha I have no idea how that links, but that's the way it is!

America is in such debt. It's just so interesting how countries, superpowers like that states can be in such a state, and we've just been having a perception where America is a great country, with Obama.

Speaking of America, I've been watching the show "The Kennedys". It is quite a good show indeed! I'm learning History through the show hehe. With the Cuban Missle Crisis, Berlin Wall, and the Policy of Appeasement being expressed in the show it affirms my understanding in those topics. So that's good haha.

Omygosh I'm friggin' doing nerd talk. A lot of my sentences have been linked to studies in one way or another. I can't be a nerd ): But I guess I'll just accept that fact, and live a non-nerd non-stress life after Os!

37 Days more to make a difference.

I wonder to myself, whether I am able to step up to the challenge to actually succeed in it. But a conversation with Hao Yi today reminded me to never ever ever forget God in this (: I felt somewhat encouraged after that. I guess that's right, where we can't do Os on our own, for ourselves but we have to do this for God. If not, what purpose does it serve?

A person who does it for himself might say that he's studying to get a good job, a good life, a good family, bang bang bang and stuff like that. But what's next?

Apparently, a lot of Christians in the world have been just, proving that all other religions are 'wrong' and Christianity is the 'right' one. I question that. Should we not just share the love of God around with the world, where we overflow His love out of us, and just spread it around the world? Hmmm. I can't say anything, for I do not know much heh.

Love is a hard thing to do. Oh God, teach me how to love S_______ despite his annoyingness.

To love, where defined by the world is a feeling. Love is not a feeling, but it is an action . It is an expression. Many people equate the fuzzy feeling, the butterflies that pop out in your stomach and the heartbeats that accelerate oh-so-quickly when they see a person as love. Well for me that ain't la. Cos God defines love in a whole new different way(;

The Agape love that He gives me, and us is just so awesome.. Haha I can't describe it. God is love(:

So yes from Math, I have somehow linked it to God. Hehe should I take Knowledge Inquiry? It'd make me lose a bit of hair, having to think so much. Heh well it ends here, time to study History for a bit.

I'm just gonna quote this for fun.

"Efficiency is intelligent laziness."
- I don't know who it's by.

Let us be efficient! HAHA.

2011-09-14T00:10:00.002+08:00

Prelim results are back, and I must say that I did really well(:

The grace of God had been so real in my life. It was shown through my results. With 4 A1s, 1 A2,2 B4s, and 1 C6 it has been really awesome.

1. I didn't fail physics.
2. I passed Geog!

So uhh, yeah great marks whoop!

Time is ticking, it is running out. 40+ more days to make a difference.

2011-08-28T18:01:00.002+08:00

Hello world.

I can finally say with a sense of relief, that Prelims are finally over. Oh how tiring they were. I must say that my papers were quite good except my Humanities papers. I somehow screwed them up :/ Well there's a break till Wednesday, but I'd be studying by Monday.

I managed to embark on my journey of Lan Gaming after a reaaaally long time. It felt so good sniping people, giving them headshots and I felt sooo alive, for once. But I got a headache after that though. HAHA. But hey, it was pretty good(;

Sogurt still rocks. WHOOO.

I don't know what to say, but I know that I'm really bored now. I feel so deprived. The only fun games on my computer are like.. Plants Vs Zombies and LF2. They're fun games k! Just.. a little deprived heh.

Less than 2 months left. O levels are actually quite easy. Its just that I'm pretty lazy. But I can't allow that. I know what needs to be done, and I need to do it. Heh.

Frig I can't seem to relax or anything. Well hope soccer with the prefects tomorrow helps me to relax.

2011-08-14T21:11:00.002+08:00

Alas, it has been 4 months since my last post. I had a new year resolution to actually post consistently. I've decided that posting is actually necessary, to actually understand what kind of person I was last time(:

So.. what has changed during the period of 4 months?

1. I got 27 points for my mid- years.
It was slightly depressing. Nevertheless, I'm working hard to actually go to ACJC. 7 points. I'm going for it.

2. I feel slightly smarter.
Primarily its due to the countless amounts of dollars my parents have been spending on my tuition lessons. I feel really bad. To justify their spending my subjects have to be stellar (I hope I used stellar properly).

Either than that its nothing much actually. I've only been doing a few things in my life. Eat, Sleep, Shit, a bit of Soccer, StudyGod, QT. Thats my life. That has been my life for the past 4 months, and the months ahead to come.

Once O levels are over I promise myself that I will start training haha

Well, I'm turning fat. Ain't cool. But at the same time the pushups have been doing me well.

It's not gonna be easy Joel, but it's going to be worth it .

So no matter who reads this blog, I'm still going to keep posting, because I would like to have a memento of how I was like last time. That means I'm not going to delete this blog, guys ( Unless unforeseen circumstances come into my way )

It's good if you can actually remind yourself who you are, and having a place you can voice down your thoughts, and your ideas (;

I got prelims tomorrow. Heh math. And I don't even have my french curve! Ah well. Time to hit the books(:

2011-04-06T23:00:00.003+08:00

Hey Guys. Don't know if people still read my blog, but hey I'm just gonna post one anyway.

Today is the 6th of April, 2011.

On the 9th of March, I had my Grade 8 piano exam. I got a distinction, 136 marks.

On the 23rd of March, I had my Cross Country Nationals. I didn't perform to my best of my ability, and got really disappointed, but I managed to secure a timing of 20:47, a 3 minute improvement from last year.

And today, the 6th of April, Band SYF. We got a silver. It was terribly disappointing as we were aiming for a Gold. Every corner in the band, disappointment was evidently seen from the looks of our faces. Tears were shed.

I look back, and then I think 'Did I do all these acts for the Lord?' For the piano exam I guess i did, I played my heart out. During my Cross Country, the worries of the world and be trying to box God into fitting Him into my will resulted in that, and today.. well I don't know.

Upon today's performance, I think about the people who cried. Why. They worked hard? Some of them did, but some of them were those we kept skipping band and expected something to happen. You reap what you sow.

However, I must say that I am very, very proud of our performance today. We improved a lot, that's for sure. When other people dropped their standard, like ACSI, who got a Gold, and not a Gold with Honours, we got a silver again, same award as last year. And, we finally created music. Though there were lots of intonation problems here and there but hey, it was quite a good performance.

I look back at the tears shed once again, and they speak to me a sense of regret. Why didn't I work harder before? Why didn't I do this, why didn't I do that. Heh. But hey! I didn't squeak too! Well I almost squeaked, but no one heard it!

In exactly 23 days, mid-years would be coming, and thus I need to start studying hard. Like real hard. 23 days is just such a short period of time. Sigh okay this post seems very disorganiesd cos I'm getting distracted by facebook.

You know there're just some times you do something so hardcore and then you just end up losing your EQ? I guess I'm in that period now. I won't say that I've been studying very hard, but I have been studying! And then it just results you in just like screwing up your own brain, and you're just like 'STUDY.STUDY.STUDY.' Well I guess we have to do that.

Disappointment. I guess it's just, one of those feelings that just keeps us alive, eh? But live goes on. That's for sure. Os are in 6 months, I think- wait, I'm going crazy but hey, in order to succeed in Singapore, every grade counts. I'll just go crazy studying, and breaking down. Nothing much, it's just the usual.

But, where does God fit in our lives then?

2010-10-24T22:37:00.002+08:00

wow. i had such an epic experience today.

on the bus home from plaza sing i was on the bus, 162M. i think it was the weather that made me all drowsy, and so on the bus i fell asleep. when i woke up, i looked to the left, and i was like 'woah! there's like some girl sitting next to me?' haha cos i didn't even realise it at all. so i was like 'uhh okay i'll go back to sleep'. so when i woke up the bus was at a red light, about to go to my stop. and so when i jerked a little my wallet dropped underneath my seat. and so when i tried to retrieve it it was too in deep under my seat so the girl next to me had to like get up first and i was ' omygosh omygosh' and i actually said it out loud. so i had to like get off my seat and all instead of trying to reach from it while sitting down. the people behind were nice enough to pick it up for me. so yeah! i was like quite embarrased heh. but the person said it was okay.

hmmm, wonder what it would mean if i actually met that person again.. ah well!

on another note,i watched uhh, you again today! it was qutie funny actually. i must admit that the storyline was actually quite good! it was like quite dramatic, but i must say it did catch my attention and so i actually liked it.

the theme for that movie was like forgiveness, a topic i chose for my english eoy which i totally screwed up. and so i wonder to myself, ' if someone screwed up my life, and then i see that person again. would i be able to forgive that person? '

those who know of my sad life in primary school perhaps would know. p6.. wasn't too great. i had annoying buggers all around me. due to my innocent and like nice-ish introvertish nature, i got like annoyed by the people sitting around me, a lot.

in primary school before that, even from p1 i got bullied by the people in my bus.

yes, i was a loser.

and so i look back at the people who bullied me. was i able to forgive them? they say 'let bygones be bygones', but when you actually meet that person again, would you be able to forgive them, for the hurt and misery caused?

you might think that i'm exaggerating it and all, but it was that painful. i had like almost no one to like support me and all, and to just keep pushing on. some of the people who annoyed me in p6 are in my school and i would say yeah, i forgive them. there's no use storing the hurt, revenge inside me. it kills.

and so dear readers, (if there actually are), i would like to ask you something.

is getting revenge worth it?

2010-10-21T15:50:00.002+08:00

oh wow, look at the date. its, 21/10.

last post, 1/9.

it has been like almost 2 months since i posted! its hectic i tell you. its just, crazy how and what i've been going through since september. wow, and on my itunes its like playing september now. how the irony.

so well, i'll start on going what's on now! haha exams are over baby(: so what does that mean? results are on friday. tomorrow. friggg. i got my geog marks though, they posted on ntrix and all. a 58% isn't too great, eh? i studied so frigging hard for that paper.

when i saw my marks, it was like ughh friggit. i studied so frigging hard for my paper and this is the kind of marks i get. well we all feel like that right, when we just study so hard and then we get crappy marks.

so i'm here to tell you this, don't worry. life sucks. just suck it in, learn from your mistakes, thats the most important thing. you know when they always say 'failure's the mother of success'? the success only comes out when you actually learn from your mistakes. if you dont, wtheck man? you just keep on repeating the same mistakes, and the cycle continues. so to all you blog readers out there (who actually bother to read this piece of.. blog), don't worry if you get shitty marks for your papers. its life. face it. but what's the most important thing, is that we honour God with whatever we have(:

God and me.. well its not as great as before i guess. i need to work harder in my relationship between him and me. that's christianity. a relationship, it ain't a religion!

heh anw well so what have i been up to? eating, sleeping, running, watching movies, naruto.

well mostly training. i have committed myself to a 10km/day schedule, with other forms of training such as swimming, gyming, and just having fun! but physically. its crazy, but hey. if i wanna do well, and win top 20, its a commitment, and a price i have to pay. i completed 5.4 this morning, gonna do another 5 tonight.

so on another note, everyone has been complaining about the haze. ah heck it sucks okay. i have to run in the gym, and i can't run outside. well yes training's easier like this but i don't like cold air :/ i rather run with like, hot air! basically i ain't used to gym conditions. so with the haze i can't frigging run outside.

so yeap. mum just asked me to organise my things. i'm like, 'ahcrap'. i'll go organise them.. soon. ohyeah.

anw for those who have watched the other guys, kudos to you! cos that makes you awesome! the other guys, is an uber awesome movie. i'll give it like uh.. 4.5/5? for all its retarded and funny jokes. but somehow i didnt catch the storyline very well, but yeah! its about 2 guys. the last part of the movie when the narrator says about what the true meaning of the movie, i guess that was pretty awesome explaining to us everything.

we make the difference. so why not do something new instead of staying inside your comfort zone?

2010-09-01T22:13:00.001+08:00

hey guys!

heh i just felt like posting today.

i had an interesting day yesterday with training. having to do 1.6k timing check, almost puking and getting dehydrated during intervals, and muscle toning and just everything. training was great. i felt great, having known that i accomplished something.

but, im just wondering if we make it a cca, would it be like track which just survived a little, and then died? i mean, what if it closes, and then cross country in barker just lies in the memories of the team, and no one else?

i'm just wondering, how do scouts get so many people, and how do we get more people.

well if you guys know how to get people to join a cca, or encourage them, please do leave a tag(:

2010-08-31T23:40:00.002+08:00

wow.

with blink of an eye, its the end of another month. i cant believe its august already. i mean september. i cant believe that august's going to end in 19 minutes. its just amazing how fast time's passing by.

and of course i didnt keep my promise of posting as much as i can. honestly i was too lazy to post HAHA. but yeah. its just amazing how fast time's passing by. hello september. you are about to come. and once october comes, exams are here.

i just realise that every year we go through the same cycle. when jan starts and school begins, we'd be like 'DAMN THERE'S SCHOOL'. and then after a while we're used to it. a while more, and cny, march hols come, and then back to school.

and once school's over we'd be like 'OH YEAH JUNE HOLS.', and then september hols , exams, and then december. its a never ending cycle for us, till we hit jc and uni of course. so basically school's like looking forward to holidays. so where's the school then? its just, looking forward to hols, and hols, and more hols and trying to getting pass by everything.

i've been wondering about this the past month. they say that we should 'seize the day', but what does it really mean to 'seize the day' ? surely we have to do something that we won't like cos its something hard. those are humans for you. if the work seems too hard, we just wont do it. so, to seize the day, what does it really mean?

on a seperate path teachers day was today. it was pretty interesting, learining how to control troublesome people. in fact, it ain't that bad. having to control an NA class was pretty hard.

oh look, its september. i guess its time for me to go.

2010-08-11T19:46:00.002+08:00

hey guys.

well, i just wanna post something that happened to me yesterday!

alright yesterday i was training, as usual for my race on sat. and so yesterday i decided to take the route which goes up lornie road, turn into sime road exit and then turn left pass uhh raffles town club, sc etc till barker, and then run back from there. but during my run my ankle started to cramp, my knee was a little injured and my calves all crammped like crap. and so when i got to bukit timah i started to walk all the way till barker, and then i started to run. so as you barker people or people who live around bukit timah on the way from barker to newton there'd be this mini futsal court at chancery courts, where like people'd play soccer. so when i was running just when the ball was going to go onto the road i kicked it back. and then ran off after that.

so im just thinking. did God make me cramp my ankle, my calves and injure my knee a little which made me limp for like 1.2km plus for this? well in fact i think he did. i was just reminded of like, God's love. you may ask like 'hey, how's he loving you by making you injured?'. well you guys know in life, shit happens. but if we trust in God's ways. and put him first in whatever we do, somehow the crap'd just work out, right? and yeah. so i was just reminded, oh i just remembered proverbs 3:5-6

' Trust in the Lord with all your might, with all your strength and lean not onto your own understandings. acknowledge him in all ways, and he will make your path straight' .

amazing eh? God's like that. he's weird, but in a good way. wait everyone's weird hmmm. well, he's just like that. and thats what makes him awesome. and you guys know he is. so to all who're going through such shit now, perhaps today's the day where you put God first, despite the shit that happens.

so yeap.

ohcrap i exceeded my phone calls, again. exceeded by like uhhh. 39 mins or something. crap why do i keep exceeding my calls. its getting annoying.

daddy's going crazy about me studying. and i have been studying. in fact i'm going to study now. so yeah.

2010-08-09T21:39:00.002+08:00

hey guys.

alright i know i haven't been posting that regularly, but ahwell.

hmmm, today's national day! but i don't really feel patriotic or anything much. people on facebook are just going around saying something about the saf power rangers? hmm well i dont know what they're talking about cos i was playing plants vs zombies/studying during the parade.

i wonder what's the real reason for ss. is it so as to not let anyone rebel against the government, or propaganda and realise how 'great' our government is, or something? why do we even study ss hmmm. well its a free a1.. isit? i just realised that there aint much to study for ss. its just for all the seq questions.

well, eoys are in 2 months. somehow i don't feel much pressure. its weird. crap. i need the pressure to make myself study harder. i need it :/ as in a little's fine, but somehow i don't feel much pressure to push myself to study. gahh.

i've got to go now, but i'll promise that i'll post much more often in the future!

eat more pork(:

2010-08-04T22:22:00.002+08:00

it has been the longest time since i posted.

lots of things have happpened. well its really hard to find time now.

i cant believe its august already. well, 2 more months to exams, and then less than a year after that prelims come, and then Os. wow.

its just amazing how fast time is passing by.

lots of things have been going through my mind.

well, cant elaborate too much. time's ticking.

but i've just realised that songs by drake bell are really good. try one!

i know i've posted it before, but listen to it carefully, especially the lyrics.

2010-07-13T13:44:00.002+08:00

hey guys.

yeah i didnt go to school today, cos i'm sick. and as i think about the prefects, i' reminded of this song, which was played during our investiture, when we all walked in.

it is indeed my prayer, that our system of how prefects work would change. cos the true barker spirit is an enthusiastic school which laugh, and play a lot but know when to stop.

haha anyway, just go listen to the song, and check out the lyrics(:

watch this too. its pretty sad, but yeah.

2010-07-10T21:12:00.002+08:00

HELLO. I AM HAPPY. so i shall do a blog post!

well for all those people who'd go 'WHY ARE YOU AT RYC. YOUR NAME AINT ON THE LIST'

well here's why!

okay on thursday, i was just with my councilors. and then they just so happened to like be discussing about like finding a replacement for ryc. and then they look at me and asked me whether i wanted to go. so i agreed, cos i found that the sound in band aint going anywhere, and i'd rather practise on my own. so yeah! its more effective like that.

well ryc day one!

well it was talks, talks and uhh. talks. kinda. ish. well the only thing i learnt was that if you want to do something, you've got to go all in. dont hold back. well i geuss thats a pretty meaningful lesson. especially if you wanna serve God. dont hold back, go all in! ohhh and i loved the pictures! they were really meaningful, and indeed impactful!

oh yeah, and the mgs auditorium's suuuuuper stuffy. i couldnt stand it. like i had to leave the room just to get fresh air, and my heart was beating like super fast. sighh. i just realised that mg has lots of spots to emo. i was admiring God's creation, as i just sat there and get some fresh air.

so uhh, yeah after that i went for cell. uhh yeah!

ryc day two!

alright, so when we came i had to do some dance for some block party kinda thing. so i kinda left cos the air was really bad. and then when i came back we were like finishing already. haha it was.. pretty cool i guess!

talking to the old guy was really fun. like he's kinda awesome, and i won the bingo prize for him(: so it was pretty awesome. and i managed to ask somewhat about his family, job, and where he lived oh and his name's lum meng ming(: and he told me that the surname lum originates from the place which speaks cantonese! and the surname lee, li and lim originates from the place which speaks hokkien! haha its really really cool talking to him(:

well so i managed to try frolick, shared a cup with zul. it was really good i guess, but i cant tell whether frolick or sogurt's nicer. ahwell.

so after that hmmmm. ah yes world gallery? haha we got australia and new zealand. that means 2 countries yo. haha it was pretty hard actually. and my group leader was really demanding, somewhat ish, like i didnt want to dissapoint her if not i'd be like screwed or something. but, she was really really nice. its pretty cool to get to know her(:

so yeap. we got to our world gallery. so zul and i were like going around saying ' VOTE FOR AN6' haha and zul was like had a vanguard sheet of 'vote for an6' on his body. it was really fun! haha going around just saying that. so in the end we got quite a few votes. but cos you see we heard that if we won he had to present and we were like OHSHITOHSHIT. so we took our stickers and pasted it on the another group HAHA. and so during the dinner when they announced the winners, we were so happy we werent picked! it was pretty funny.

and during dinner well, the food was okayish i guess. haha one thing i have to say about mg is that the school spirit, is just amazing. like how they just encourage their friends and all, if we had that in barker, it'd be really nice(:

so in conclusion, ryc was a pretty awesome thing(: i loved it.

AND I AM NOT A FLIRT.

2010-07-07T20:08:00.002+08:00

well now school has reopened, and we're into the middle of the second week.

time's passing by too fast. its pretty interesting how it works.

i'm gonna write whatever comes to my mind, so this post's gonna be pretty disorganised.

well to start off, i loveeed today's skies. they were so beautiful. when i was studying bio today i just got distracted by it. about 2 hours before 630 there were some black clouds, and i thought it was gonna rain, but it didnt, and it cleared off(: so that made my day.

another thing that made my day was me getting into contact with a phone again! sean ang was so kind as to lend me his handphone. mummy being all mummy again's worried that i'd damage, but it aint gonna happen. i'm gonna do whatever i can to go and, not drop it. booyah!

well another thing is, my running's improving! got a race next week, yah. but during pe today i fell down while playing handball cos i was trying to steal the ball away from alistair. hope he's fine. haha but handball was pretty fun, i guess.

wanna leave you guys with this.

have you guys ever wondered, what will happen, if you tried to do something on your own, without God's strength?

2010-06-27T22:04:00.002+08:00

hello world.

its about another 9 more hours and 35 mins before school reopens. and then life gets back to normal.

there're a few things that i actually realised during my june hols.

number one:

Drake bell's actually a pretty good singer. check it out

number two:

i need to brush up on my physics.

mid year score - 59.4

that aint good if it keeps up like that.

number three :

band is taking up half of my life. practice is just crazy. wait, in other schools its worse. oh thank God i'm in barker.

haha i'm too lazy to think. i'll just let it come to me.

i cant believe that the holidays has passed, so fast. the year is moving too fast. before you guys know it, we're taking our Os already. well thats life, and then next we're in jc, and then uni and then we're like working already. its like, wow man. haha time's moving by too fast, whether you like it or not.

number four:

you can't just not want God like that. you have to want him. cos you know why? you need him. NEED him.

I had an awesome time today at church. played for praise and worship (P&W), and i'm improving! haha but there's always room for improvement. and during P&W, i really could feel the spirit working through me. haha thanks, God(: well today i played squash too, and spent an awesome time with Jarrod and Lauren. makes me realise how loved i am. and that's number five(:

number five :

i don't need to purposely do anything to make people love me, cos they already do(: like how God loves me!

i came to another conclusion. if you wait upon the Lord and put your full trust in him, he will put his plans to pass. but its whether you wanna be in his perfect plan. got to be in tune with him! haha he's planned everything, even the people you'd go out with, your boyfriends or girlfriends. so thats number six!

number six :

Don't worry if you won't get attached. if its meant to be with that guy/girl, its meant to be! i mean you don't have to do anything extra like or anything, you get what i mean. God'd do everything.

i shouldn't be too materialistic. haha or care about the number of pimples on my face! i mean, i'm only fifteen. comeon man, take a chill pill! haha i don't really have to care, about the world and all about the stupid things you have to be buff and pimpleless. i mean seriously, those people who have those features, aren't happy at all. for we're only happy with the Lord! strength comes from the joy of the Lord(: number seven, yeah(:

number seven :

I should not be too materialistic, and not care about my acne! cos i'm made in the image of God(:

so i wanna pose this question to you. are you living your life, purposely, meaningfully with siginificance and fufilment?

oh and my mum stalks me on facebook.

2010-06-20T23:38:00.002+08:00

hey guys!

wow. i really should be posting more often.

well holidays for me, lots of stuff with band, malaysia and stuff!

i'll write a little bit about malaysia.

well malaysia.. was pretty awesome! haha i actually enjoyed going there for the first time. like, its really nice you know, to just get away from urbanisation, and just go to a sub urban town to just relax in a shop house, eating good food and just, chillaxing! haha i was playing xbox, but anyway, it was pretty nice.

oh sorry this time i went to my grandma's house at batu pahat. go google it if you reaally want to find out where it is! doubt you would anw.

i just realised that my grandma living there is one rich person. you wanna know what she does?

in chinese ' i lend people money, and then they return me with a little bit more money'

ah long.

haha and she does actually own a few shophouses! like she owns the place where the 4d people rent from her. its pretty amazing. haha but she's still living in that shophouse. its pretty nice going to shophouses like these.

haha yeap! and i got fat when i went there, i ate like 2 servings per meal. and i got fat. so i'm trying to lose it by eating.

so.. what else happened? hmm. oh yes! cell retreat.

haha i loved cell retreat so much. well it was the time i experienced prawning for the first time! haha i really hope we can prawn more as a cell. but i wonder how much the prawning thing is though. i really like it. like its an awesome.. ish.. sport kinda thing! well i managed to catch like.. 6 prawns in 2 hours. that was because there were a lot of people around okay! and the prawns didnt want my food. but it was pretty fun when i used the worms(:

hmmm, so yeap. we had talks about dating, and friendship! haha i guess its really important to know what the bible says about it. like we have to go back to christianity for things like these. and all things too of course.

i'm kinda sad that i didnt get to go to brazil. sigh. didnt get to meet the germans. but i guess at the end of the day, its God who makes the final decision cos he knows best(:

so about cell retreat hmmm, haha i was so tired that when cecil was explaining about Jesus going to Jeruseleum for the Passover about its significance. like nothing went in sigh. so i slept the whole afternoon today.

hmmm, i guess that my week has been really one tiring one with malaysia, band and cell retreat and all. and school's starting in a week.

i dont want history to repeat itself sigh.

2010-06-07T23:22:00.002+08:00

haha hi guys.

if you guys noticed i haven't blogged in a long while, but i just wanna blog now.

i just came back form a class barbecue, and had the best fun ever.

times like these just come once in a lifetime, or more(:

well i was playing pool there, a lot haha. well even though i only hit one ball in, at least i did all the set ups for oscar and alistair(: playing with them, and ben tay and pravier and chew was an awesome time.

like playing guitar hero was fun too! like i even though i kinda sucked and didnt really get used to it, i had fun playing pool. eating was great too.

haha well i played the piano, and just improvised, as usual. i should really put my work down on paper. soon. i could compose a song with only 3 chords(: i think. well i can improvise it though! still working on how to play a song in a minor key.

well, so besides that of course i ate! i ate soooo much otah, and won jarett in an otah eating competition(: haha i just realised what a big eater i am. luckily i'm a runner so its pretty okay.

oh i've been starting to train again, so thats good. i should keep this up more, and hit my target of a sub 17min.

i shall take this moment to post about 30 hour famine!

haha i had soo much fun there. 30 hour famine taught me how to treasure what i have, and what i should not take for granted. the people out there are really suffering. like when i was role playing as a shoe shine boy, i could feel the sense of, shit-ness. and it was only one person plus i'm not doing it for a living. i really wanna go for cambodia missions this year, to help the people there.

well we also did some flash mob sort of ish. omygosh i wanna shop so badly. you know we were next to a flea market. gah i wanna goooo. oh and i saw some awesome person who had my threadless tee haha.

well the only thing that sucked was the collecting of bags. like it was really really disorganised and a little screwed up. but i had fun, really.

i think that from friday till today was the best days ever.

friday - saturday: 30 hour famine camp
sunday - managed to get myself to train
monday - barbecue

awesome(:

but there's piano tomorrow, so that's the sucky thing sigh. ohwell!

i actually enjoy practising my fugue. even though its sooo hard.

watch it! that's the song i'm playing. doesn't sound hard, but a lot of effort is needed to play this song. its reaaallly hard. grade 8 piece yo!

haha enjoy guys, and have an awesome holiday!

2010-05-25T22:54:00.002+08:00

i should start posting more often.

i'm getting bored more often and i always forget to post.

ohwell!

today was cool i guess. i managed to play some soccer uhh. yeah. played with mean sec 4s :/

results are back, and school ends on thursday. and i'm wondering what should i do.
i should get started on my work. but somehow i get so lazy to do it. i have to do my work.

this post shall end here. i need to get back onto the beat of writing. need more time.

2010-05-15T16:54:00.002+08:00

wow. its been a long time since i've posted.

i dont know where to start. too many things have been happening.

well for starters, exams ended like..3 days ago. and i've been doing lots of crap during then(:

i was so happy when they ended. after exams i went to watch iron man. OHMYCRAP ITS DAMN COOL.
LIKE DAMN COOL
DAMN COOL
DAMN COOL
DAMN COOL.
but the ending wasn't satisfying though.

you guys should totally watch it. i'd give a rating of about.. 3.7/5? around there. but its a movie thats pretty cool though!

i wanna watch killers. and the break-up plan. ohwow there're just too many movies to watch.

thats why people watch them illegally

when shall i watch ipman hmmm. well i wanna watch glee too D; cos Daddy doesn't wanna get me star world. and other awesome channels.

hbo's a really awesome channel. they have such great movies. watched it when i was in china. hbo's great(:

20 mins of playing soccer and then i get exhausted. thats right, a new training - playing soccer. playing soccer does train stamina. instead of running like some dog, i shall play more soccer.

just realised that there're inter-class games on wednesday. ohwow, inter class games, haven't had them it the longest time.

the last time i had inter class soccer was when i was p5 and well.. i guess what people said of me being an emo kid's correct. i'm really affected by my emotions. but i'm learning to control them! well if you can remember what happened to me in p5, 5.1 guys, good for you. i'd like to keep looking forward(:

i've been playing so much plants vs zombies, that i think i've almost completed the whole game, just got to finish the survival modes and i'm done! gah its so addictive.

and then there's naruto too. crap why are they releasing the episodes so slowly D: got watched 20 episodes already and i wanna see naruto and pain fight! STUPID DANZO. he's a fag.

okay i should stop. i sound like some naruto geek.

i'm down with a flu now. man it sucks. i wanna run but running with a flu seems wrong. like i think faizal wanted me not to run cos i had a little flu during nationals.

oh thats right. there's nationals + syf next year. ohshit. they're gonna clash for sure.

and then wong would go start complaining.

and then i'd keep on saying i wanna win in both.

getting a gold for both of them's gonna be hard. well atleast trying to get top 20 in cross would be damn hard. but i must try. thats the most important thing(:

i'm too bored. i need to go out.

gonna try to go out tomorrow! i hope.

alright i'm off to do something, i dontknow. something.

2010-05-04T21:49:00.002+08:00

wow. i haven't posted for the longest time.

in a loooong time. well, i'm in the midst of my exams, and God's still amazing.

the sky has been really beautiful these few days. and when i say that i mean beautiful when i walked up the hill in the morning i saw one of the most great sunrises ever.

its amazing ot see how God's creation, is just magnificent.

Had Geog and SS today, probably the most killer papers. i was so stressed up going crazy. trying to study in school but those primary school kids were just so noisy.

sigh.

there's just too much to write.

i've got to run the race. persevere on. and profess to the faith that i believe it.

stress brings about pimples. damn.

well, i've just been wondering, why is studying just so hard. and then i look around my room, and found sermon cds tht byron and martyn gave me last year - academic excellence.

with 2 minutes into listening the sermon i'm just amazed about what i can do. God can surely work in all ways.

its really amazing, that, somehow you may think that 'what, what does studying have to do with doing well and God ', but there's a real big world that you haven't been exposed to.

Got chinese tomorrow. promised myself i'll read more chinese texts and watch more chinese tv. its been working, somehow., dont really wanna go for chinese tuition. i think. dont know. ohwell.

i guess that's all the time i can spare. keep on pushing.

never give up.

2010-04-18T23:13:00.002+08:00

hey guys.

sorry for not posting so much. i've been soo busy with all that crap.

mid year's in 12 days and i'm not prepared.

band takes up alot of time. i just feel like quiting it.

piano takes up like about 40 mins perday. i could study half a chapter within that time.

i need to find time to go and maintain my running. and get better by a little.

we havent completed the syllabus.

sigh i souldreally pathetic saying all this. somehow ilostmyself. i just feel that i've lost my trueself. but after spending time with the Lord i've realised my problem - having faith in faith.

i've got to really just learn how to fall back on him. its really important that you guys too do that.learning to fall back on him. not use him. he's a guy too you know. i also need to just,trust him completely. for a guy like me its pretty hard.

2 mins. til i've got to go.

there's just so much to do. i cant believe i forgotto return the library cds, 2 weeks ina row. i wanna expand my christian music library. but i just keep forgetting.

guys i wanna leave you with this - when are you gonna say ' Lord, this is what i have and this is yours.'

its hard to say that, aint it?

30 secs.

well, pray, and have that faith that God'd see you through all your life, no matter what happens.

but prayer without faith's empty.

2010-04-11T23:26:00.002+08:00

hey guys.

sorry for not posting for so long. just felt like posting now.

after having a conversation with my mum, i just realised something: i do not have a clear direction in life. i need a new, proper and distinct direction. so i'm just gonna go fasting for about a week. 7 day fast.got to find my purpose in life again.

some things that you guys have to understand, you can never do things on your own. you dont just need God, but you also need your friends, family, and like other people to really help you in your life. and without that clear direction, you'll end up like me. trying to please everyone, which you can never do.

and lastly, dont be afraid to cry. there're times you got to really put your pride down. i just realised that i've been crying more. perhaps i'm becoming manlier (: HAHA. well, just be open to things, cos you're not always right.

so guys, remain strong. God has the key to everywhere, except one place - your heart. he's just waiting outside to heal you of everything and just speak to you (: so mid years, i may not do very well, but i'm gonna do my best. my very best. not gonna give up till i've got nothing left.

and that's a promise i'll make.

2010-04-06T22:31:00.002+08:00

somehow i've been dreading school. at the same time i dont know why i look forward to it.

its a weird feeling that you cant comprehend.

this afternoon the skies were really awesome. so calm.

for a moment, i jsut realised the beauty of life. but i've been distracted by too many things. sigh.

2010-04-02T20:22:00.002+08:00

hey. its good friday, yeah (:

hmmm, my good friday was pretty awesome.

managed to renew my commitment. after the 5 days of fast from msn, i've discovered my new calling, and a new direction i need to go. i'm no longer lost. thanks God.

i just wanna, i dont know. sigh.

the verse on the bulletin from service today, wow.

' Teach me to do Your will, for you are my God'
- Psalm 143:10

~~i'll finish this tomorrow~~

just caught something on facebook from sherwyn.

' How do i sorry? how do you forgive me? '

well i just realised something. when someone's pissed at us we can do nothing, but just let time heal things.

ohwell! haha i had fun today. played soccer in school. played crossbar challenge with justin foo,kek and chengyen. almost got it D:

oh i've finally got a new bed. had backaches cos of my old mattress. its like caved it. because someone admitted that she kept on jumping on my bed.

yay its easter tomorrow (:

i just realised something. i love God sooo much. he's an awesome guy.

we're all sinners. comeon, everyone knows that. we do bad stuff all the time.

so imagine. this random dude you don't even know tells you this ' hi bob! i love you even though you killed someone'

he died on the cross for us. and we still hurled insults at him even when he was on the cross. he healed, he did miracles, he raised people from the dead. and its all because of one thing - he loves us so dearly much.

and each time we fall, he's just there to pick you up again. even in times of like bad he's still there to pick us up. he's just holding on so tightly unto us. even if we let him go he'll never let us go, cos he loves us so much.

comeon, who in the world would love you so much, that will actually die for you, forgive you even if you hurl insults at the person, spit on the person, step on him, slap him, okay do alot of bad stuff to him. no one, right? even if the person forgives you obviously he would be angry for a moment. But no, Jesus still loves you (:

i thank God, and i will praise him even in the storm. thanks God, i love you. really much.

its just so awesome that, he never hates anyone.he will be angry but he still loves you. no matter what happens.

somehow things just dont happen the way we want it to happen. its like a game of tetris. somehow we get pieces which are really hard and we don't know where to place, but the computer actually puts it in some order where it will actually fit perfectly. amazing right?

so, that's our God. a God of wonders, and most importantly - love.

2010-03-31T22:46:00.003+08:00

To you:

Hey. I'm sorry alright. i've lost your trust and it wasn't easy gaining it either. but i just wanna let you know that i didnt let out anything. it is kinda a misunderstanding. I just wanna tell you that whatever you told me, it is still kept within me, never gonna be let out of my lips.never did, never will. i will assure you of that. but somehow i dont know i just lost your trust. It is my fault, somehow i just know it is. I dont ever want to lose a friend. but even so, you've got every right to be pissed at me. If it makes you feel better to just not care about me, by all means go ahead. but the times where i was becoming your friend was amazing. i really enjoyed it.

you know who you are. i doubt you'd read this anyway.

2010-03-31T22:39:00.002+08:00

i'm about to give up. just on the verge. but i'm still pressing on.

this frigging sucks. stress is winning the battle, for it have allied itself with fatigue. i have to win this battle against it. have to.

today, i don't know what came across me. during recess while sir was teaching me how to do 5C where i don't even know how to do, i had to excuse myself into the toilet. and just started to, break down.

this is, i don't know what to say. too much stuff has just been happening. i've got to find my direction again.

Jesus please Lord, never let me go

got to keep reminding myself not to swear. it ain't that great anyway. sigh, the ways of barker's catching up on me. got to run away from it.

the moon tonight's eexceptionally beautiful. just wished that i can find the time to just stare at it. what a beautiful sight indeed.

good friday's coming (: yay! so i've decided to not fast from food, but to fast from msn. not going to use it till friday. or sat. and not blogging or facebooking till 1030 at night.

i need you, Lord.

2010-03-26T22:47:00.000+08:00

Disappointed, but determined. watch out acsi, victoria and other schools. a new runner's gonna arise.

2010-03-26T22:29:00.001+08:00

singapore polytectinc.

wondering where to stop when i take 74 tomorrow hmmmm. ohwell!

got to go there for some awesome conference. gah i'm too lazy to post.

sorry guys, heh.

2010-03-24T16:22:00.002+08:00

hey.

i'm so dissapointed in myself.

nationals was, crappy. it was so not my best run.

there're no words of what i can describe how i'm feeling now.

in the morning it wasn't actually that great. i think 100 plus killed it all. i drank it and then started to get nauseous. like, in the morning my phlegm and flu started to work up. which like killed my whole form today. so i was comtemplating whether to run or not. but i did, thanks to darren. he gave up his spot for me.

what have i been training these 3 months for. faizal told me not to push too much today cos he was worried for me. so i did as he said. but, i just felt dissapointed inmyself. i knew that i could do soo much better than today. i've done it before. but why. even if i was so tired, even if i was feeling a little sick i knew that i could have done soo much better. at the last 100 metres i knew that i could sprint, but id idnt. i chose my ankle being cramped as an excuse. which was so not that true. even if it did i still could have sprint, losing about 10 positions.

but nevertheless, i'm not gonna look at it anymore. not gonna look at it. what's done have been done. what i can do now, is to train harder for next year's b div. and thats what i will do, no matter what. i'm gonna start training consistently. and just make sure, that i'll be disciplined.

somehow i felt that this was all God's will, for me to be like this. for me to not sprint at the end. somehow. i just feel it. before it began i was praying' let not my will, but your will be done'. so no matter what happens, i'm trusting in him (:

but even though that happened, i've got good news which God have me and cheered me up a little.

i've been chosen to be in that 20 which will be then short listed further on to 8 for the brazil thing. Thanks God, cheered me up (:. so, you guys who know anything about climate change and global warming, please start educating me. like i kinda need it cos the second round's gonna be hard. like i've got to speak about, well stuff like that. and i dont know much stuff about climate change. so pleaseee educate me (:

I will praise you in the Storm

2010-03-23T21:43:00.002+08:00

hey guys.

tomorrow's cross nationals.

i just want to bear myself. that's all i want to do. by the grace of God, i really hope that he'd give me strength. tomorrow's the day. the day, i will keep pushing on. i'm gonna make this commitment that tomorrow i'll push myself so hard, that i'll probably faint. i'll push sooooo hard till i dont know what happens.

the Lord has brought me into this, and he will be faithful and bring me out of it. i'm really just gonna trust him. in all that i do. he's, such a great God. i really want to say that i've run the good race, and i've fought hard. for i can do all things through christ, who strengthens me.

tired, but i'm just gonna continue this post for about a while longer.

Sigh got to go back to school after the race.

i will do my best. my very best. i will not give up, till i've got nothing left. until, i've got nothing left .

i knowmyself. if i push myself hard enough, i will be able to hit my target, and that's what i want to do. that's all i want to do. to do my best, with God by my side.

well, God is good, all the time. He puts this song of praise, in this heart of mine (:

2010-03-21T22:31:00.002+08:00

sigh.

Dad's in India now for the next 5 days. didnt know about it till like, today in the morning. i wanted to spend time with him after church today. cos there's no camp com meeting whatsoever. so its like finally i can spend time with him. But, no he's not there.

cant believe i cried when i heard that Dad went to Mumbai. like, yeah i really did. in the car. tears did shed, but i tried to pull it in. well, at least he'll be back on friday. i, do miss him. cant believe i'm saying that.

ohwell! church today was pretty awesome. i finally got my stuff going on for my com. all drivers installed, windows 7 up. the last thing's only the microsoft office.

wednesday's nationals. and i didnt train yesterday, and today. yesterday was becuase too tired. today was becuse it was raining. that gives me 2 days to train only. mann. i really wanna do well. as long as there's the number of 20 mins there, i'm happy. thats all i want.

school's tomorrow. dont really wanna go. damn. dreading it.

2010-03-20T16:46:00.002+08:00

hey guys.

back from camp, back to school.

the past 4 days just passed by, so fast. its amazing how it is. i would say that i did enjoy my time at camp.

Band camp was great. i managed to get my game back, and playing my instrument like last time. games of band camp were, kinda boring but fun at the same time though. itspretty awesome. even though there were many stuff that happened which almost caused the destruction of band camp, we managed to pull it off and be an awesome band (: i just hope, that the new committee would actually know how to work do become great leaders, not good friends of the band. leaders.

church camp was like woahhhh. haha well even though i came late, i had an awesome time learning, having fun and worshiping God (: haha theme talks and workshops were really fun. Rev Jasper was the bomb yo! HAHA I CANT BELIEVE I JUST SAID THAT. but yeah, he was really good. the way he just changed the atmosphere was really, great. he did help me with like trying to bring God into my friends lives too! so now i know a new technique, so watch out guys (: hehehe.

games were like woahhh. haha so this is how it feels like to be in the core com. special privelleges (: hehe i was like bombing everyone and stuff like that. it was like woah, and we like managed to dunk people! during night games CERTAIN PEOPLE were bullying me with their flour bombs and stuff like that. then i became all smelly D: but still, it was like sooo fun.

after camp? one word - tired. but i managed to stay awake during cell though. its pretty cool heh.

well i just had like a chem test in the morning. late 15mins partially cos i woke up late heh. but God was good even though i was late. he still was there for me. he's just, so so great. he's always good. he's always in control. and he will keep his promises, putting his plans and purposes to pass for me.

So thats camp(s) for me. Filled up my march hols.

got nationals on wednesday. training hard for it. wish me luck!

Im gona love you always, God. Thanks for being there for me through the storms. i'm in one now till wednesday, and till the end of the week. please help me. But even so, i'll still love you. Thanks God (:

2010-03-15T23:32:00.001+08:00

hey guys! decided to do a post before camp.

yeap, gonna have band camp tomorrow. leaving halfway for church camp.

God's been really great to us, for increasing the numbers by like a 100%. its been really awesome how he works. all we have to do, is to just trust in him.

i'm gonna be soo tired after camps. gonna do my homework, and i'm training every morning. gonna be so tiring, but i'll make it (:

haha well i got 10th place in the school cross country. pretty satisifed with it.

nationals are in 9 days. sigh the stress is on. but i believe that by the grace of God i can do it.

so yeap. man this is short sorry gusy but i've got to sleep. see you(:

2010-03-10T23:12:00.002+08:00

please do not laugh at me when you see me tomorrow.

yeah i'd be doing devotions tomorrow. Praying hard that people would actually listen to me. cos normally during devotions no one would care. but i'm believing. with a little bit of doubt there trying to pray against it.

father Lord, i commit tomorrow's devotions into your hands. i believe that you can work miracles. so please Lord, help me.

well by doing so i guess i can improve my public speaking. i just pray that i dont get all nervous and stuff. really.

so yeap!
i've finally begun training again. finally found time. i'm so gonna burn out during march camp. like on tuesday got to report for band camp. then after that on wednesday 545 i'd wake up to go run. then got a whole day of bandcamp/church camp. hope i can leave early. then on thursday i'd be waking up same time to go run and then whole day of church camp. then on friday same thing wake up run and whole day of church camp till night. then saturday got chem remedial.

tring eh?ohwell! believing in God that i can overcome this time of killing (:

one more day till 'freedom'.

2010-03-06T12:09:00.004+08:00

whoops havent been posting for the longest time.

yeap i'm back from obs baby (: survived the 5 days.

we had to like pitch our own tents, cook our own meals and not bathe for 2 nights. how's that?

first day like we met the people and they were like talking who knows what. had our belaying practice, checked the store and then went to pitch our tents at some scary place! it was pretty cool.

then on the next day, we went to do our high elements. cos i was the belayer the frigging commands are stuck in my head:

climber - belayer am i on belay
belayer - no you're not. (pulls the rope)
climber - thats me
belayer - squeeze check, rope check, instructor check
instructor - okay!
climber - climbing
belayer - climb on.

retarded eh? well that was what we were doing like for who knows how long. after that we set off for our expedition! that means 2 nights no bathing.

we were like kayaking and learning how to do stuff. 2 nights without bathing's like reaally sick. i had rashes after the 2 nights D:

so after that day, we went for our sea expedition. 7 hours at sea. it was pretty cool. like we set off really late but we managed to reach back at our campsite like relatively early. well earlier than what we proposed. so yeap, pretty cool (:

so another night without bathing. well i did powder a little but it wasnt enough.

so the next day we went for a really long hike. like we trekked for who knows how long.across the whole pulau ubin you know. during then my rashes were working up. quite badly. so i took the anti-itch pill that wen han gave me. dont know whether its supposed to work like that, but it counter itches it with pain. so imagine your back having itch, with pain for hours. and the following day i also had that. i even feel it now. well at least it aint as bad as yesterday. and the day before.

but even so, obs was an amazing experience. i had the privellege of leading the sea expedition with another 2 people. it was pretty cool.well with that they'd submit of how i was leading. well the report would kinda help if i were going to apply for a leadership position in school.

sigh during camp justin asked me if i wanted to join council. despite being late already he still wanted me to run for it. i can tell that the other people in my class who're in council kinda want me to be in it cos i've got potential. i know that i can lead. but, i would run for council if not for one thing - time. time's really against me especially this year. sigh.

so yeap! that was my obs. awesome, but sucky cos i've got all those rashes! my watch was gandhi. i think they're frigging racist cos there was another name called rajaratnam or something like that. like i mean, its not everyday you'd go camping, going in tents, and peeing in the sea right? yes i peed in the river. hahah(:

ohmycrap i just realised that nationals are in 18 days. i'm gonna cry. there's not enough time to train. by hook or by crook, 20 mins. here i come.i will get it. no matter what. even if it takes me fainting after the race.

2010-02-24T22:42:00.002+08:00

hellooo.

man today sucked. first i forgot to bring my bio essay to school.

then after that i forgot to take my tie with me.

then after that had a piano lesson which was kinda horrible.

sigh im just feeling so stressed up.

and today's run sucked too.

haha well but some things that did lift me up a little (:
its like sean and i somehow we'd like screw up every single practical so its like really funny. cos like we're supposed to test for the carbon dioxide gas. and by the time i realised that i needed to go test for it the gas escaped! then he needed to test for the ammonia gas he forgot that he was supposed to test for it too! lucky there was some of it left (:

yeahh. going to nanyang tomorrow1 my first invest, hehe. kinda nervous. dont really know what to do. ohwell! i'll just ask the people who went for it already heh.

and then today's run kinda sucked. my calves and ankles started to cramp up so it was a little difficult running. sighhh.

so yeap. screwed up day. sigh.

2010-02-20T23:00:00.002+08:00

hey guys(:

yeap had my race today. i guess i did pretty alright. THEY LIED. THE RACE AINT 4.2KM. ITS LIKE MORE THAN 5 I THINK. like at the 4km mark i was dying already. so i ended up with a timing of uhm, dunno. 22-23 mins which what i was aiming for and like i got 70 something placing about of 130 plus plus plus.

haha so i guess i did pretty alright. it was really fun running heh. but the last part was like really pissing. i was like 'WHEN IS THE FINISH LINE'. damn pissing. then in the end i finally got overtook by like 3 other fellows.

oh i didnt know that chinaman's in cross too. haha its pretty cool (:

haha well, i guess i'm doing pretty alright. but for nationals i'd run till i die or something. gonna push myself so hard till i faint or something (:

haha so next week got another race. i'm hoping i'd do well in that heh. hoping. wait not hoping, believing.

so yeap! thats pretty much about what i did today. oh after that well i went to like bard's house to eat and teach some guy how to play guitar! i learnt how to play a new song too (:

CHURCH CAMP CHURCH CAMP CHURCH CAMP
BAND CAMP BAND CAMP BAND CAMP

man i need to figure out how i'm gonna do both.

2010-02-18T22:53:00.002+08:00

hello faithful readers!

if you caught what i said on facebook, you'd understand why the tone of this post's really lifted up (:

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HAHA. well yeah for those who don't know, i've got my own com now (:

haha its a hp pavilion dv3 series entertainment notebook pc. wow. what a name. i'm just copying what it says like on the com! haha i'll bring it to church soon i guess. to like play plants vs zombies or something!

haha this is sooo cool. my own com. think about what can happen! its my personal laptopppp hehe. okay i think i'm feeling damn retarded now.

so yeap! school today was pretty cool i guess. I PASSED PHYSICS. with a b3 (: haha i'm damn happy. but apparently, its not up to their standards.

i'm down for chem remedial. oh well, its on saturdays so i gues i'll go like beofre band or something!

i'm improving in chinese by reading more and more newspapers. with keng yew on my side, howard behind me i can actually do this :D haha i'm so taking advantage of them with their great chinese skills. but obviously i'd help them with whatever they need with.

i think howard's really interesting. well so he's the next person i'm gonna try to understand (:

haha ohoh sec 3s are undergoing this mentoring thingy. its like uhm, we get a mentor. i;ve got catherine wong. my english teacher!well i guess its pretty cool. like perhaps she's gonna be my new best friend (:

so yeahh. for history we had a debate today. i think that my teacher thinks that i'm an awesome debator, cos like she said ' hey class realise that he's quick to think on his feet how to answer my question '

so with this laptop. i can finally study much easier. by storing in my notes, and not on paper all over the place.

well i guess i've got to end here. got to go sleep now heh. see ya guys soon (:

2010-02-16T22:43:00.000+08:00

SHIT. I'M SUPPOSED TO GO OFF NOW. SORRY EDWIN HOLD ON. GIVE ME 1 MORE MIN.

HAHA SO CNY. i just got back. on the car ride home i felt like sooo nauseous.

i htink cny's awesome.

AI YA NVM. I'LL ELABORATE TOMORROW.

BUT WHAT I WANNA SAY IS THIS: I'M GONNA STUDY HARDER. I'M GONNA USE COM MUCH MUCH LESSER. 9 SUBJECTS PLUS BAND PLUS CROSS IS HARD OKAY.

BYE.

happy cny guys (:

2010-02-13T00:57:00.002+08:00

helloo.

GONG XI FA CAI. yay cny's coming (;

i'm so happy that we have this break. i really need it. like to rest and stuff like that. i sooo need a break.

sec 3 just sucks too much. i mean its fun and stuff but studying wise it suckss.

got a frigging 6 page bio essay to write. how great, eh?

got a geog project to do too. ohman this is just great.

i think projects are useless. why dont they just make us study thats much easier.

today was alright i guess.like after school ended went for training at bedok. and i got sun burnt heh. there's like a distinct line between the part where my sock goes up to and my calves :O then daddy scolded me for doing that. i ran at like 3 in the afternoon. how great.

then after that went to get shoes. that was the most pissing. i couldnt fine the ones i wanted. like there was this adidas supernova i wanted to get but there was no size. and alot of other pairs too. it was a little pissing ya know. then i'm stuck with this pair that i'm like oaky only with. cos i've got no cash to get asics ds trainers. that shall be my next pair. and then i'll get like adizeros (:

haha thats provided that daddy allows me to. sigh. he'll jsut go like 'you only need one pair! dont need so many!'

sigh.

man i'm so tired. but lucky there's no band on saturday so i can sleep in (: yayyy. but its gonna be only for one saturday. man why does band have to be on saturday. do they not understand that we need proper rest?i mean yes we need a good sound, but comeon. we're growing boys.

yeah. going to ahma's house tomorrow(: haha cant wait. then got reunion dinner! comtemplating on what to wear hmmmm.maybe i'll just wear a polo tee. and then save the shirt for malaysia haha.

ohwell. cant wait to go to malaysia and just eattttttt. i have no idea why i'm looking forward to it. perhaps its because i can like rest now and stuff, then when the term begins i'll die again. sigh.

so yeap. see you guys. have a blessed and awesome chinese new year(:

2010-02-10T23:28:00.003+08:00

hey guys.

yeah i've actually been feeling much better from last week.

lots of stuff have happened, but i just wanna thank the Lord for everything that he made. and of course, friends who've been like supporting me haha.

well, valentine's day's coming! i'm gonna write notes to people haha. i actually have a list.

first time i'm doing this kinda things, so dont mind me.

i know lah, i'm like a girl for doing this. so what, got a problem huh. hehe. well i'm like this luh, so you've got to learn to stick with it(:

i cant believe that i didnt run for the past 3 days. didnt run today , again. i'm gonna run the shit out of me during PE tomorrow. like sprint the frigging barker run.

race next saturday! nervous. but i guess, i'll do pretty well hehe.

gonna go to Malaysia on chinese new year. cant wait for it. really. cos i'm gonna go mass eating (;

ohyeah! mummy got me this really awesome shirt from cotton on. i've always wanted a shirt from there. thanks mum (: now i just wanna get like pants from there. pants from there are really nice but a little pricey, thats the thing. ohwell! i dont need it, i just want it. so yeap, save save save (:

haha cant wait for chinese new year to come. i'm actually looking forward to something, in like a frigging long time. normally it'd be like 'oh cny's here. okay yay, gong xi fa cai. ' but no, i'm looking forward to it, thats pretty cool hehe.

so yeap! WATCH OUT WINSTON. I'M GONNA LIKE LAP YOU OR SOMETHING TOMORROW HAHA.

2010-02-08T23:00:00.002+08:00

facebook hates me, alot.

man i just can't seem to get facebook to load properly.

oh had physics test today. i cant believe i'm gonna say this, but i'm gonna pass physics! thanks to help from yuxuan, 10 mins before the test was mass memorising thingys.

chem was alright too.

i passed geog. not enough, a 13/25's never enough. i've got to be better, soon.

i cant believe i'm talking like that.

band's tiring the shit out of me.

i'm going crazy, i think.

i think that blogs are just a place for expressing your feelings and just go ranting, having moments with yourself to share with the world. i mean, what else can you do with it?

sigh. this is just great.

i've got hardly anytime to just be myself, or study or anything. i think i'm gonna lose the true me soon, if you guys actually know who i really am.

this is it.

here's a song, brad introduced it to me (:

i never realised that U2 actually existed till like 3 days ago. hehe.

2010-02-05T23:49:00.002+08:00

hey guys.

if you've been noticing me in class i've been really stressed up, especially in physics. during then i let out uhm, explicit language and stuff like that begging the teacher to let me go for remedial. then i got so pissed off till i punched the notice and there's a dent there :/

yeah, this is my life. so stressful. but it actually has been going better than last week, even thoughi had 2 tests today. i think i'm gonna die in geog test. i only wrote 2 paragraphs for a 2 mark question D:

but history was quite alright i guess.

chem and physics on monday. die. seriously. i dont know whether i can do this.

perhaps depending on the Lord's strength is all i need, and what i've been trying to do each day.

sigh, i guess i actually can do this. wait i dont guess, i know and have that faith i can, lasting this life and year of mine!

got a race in 2 weeks, another race in 3 weeks, nationals in 7 weeks, closing to 6 soon. training hard (:

i think i can hit 20 mins and below for 5km! haha yayy.

so yeap, my stressed life, which i'm gonna lift it unto the Father (:

2010-01-30T21:26:00.002+08:00

hey guys.

didnt go for band today cos i felt a little sick. so yeah just stayed home to rest. after doing a few pages of geog i went to sleep and woke up at like 1240, realising i'd be late for the meeting.

had cell leader meeting today. well guess it was pretty cool haha.

daddy's like got 5 cells under him. thats pretty cool haha.

then after then went to cover like about 7km. i think maybe 8. around there, in about 32mins. my running's improving, yay! but i dont want soo much leg muscles. i need upper body too. i'm like so skinny haha.

man i think i'm gonna pop soon. i need to just take some time and get some rest.

church tomorrow, yay! but school on monday. sigh, i guess that's just life.

2010-01-29T23:22:00.002+08:00

man i should be posting more.

well , my week was like reaaaalllyyyy stressful.

monday was band and i got back at like what, 7, or 6 or something. then there was like hw to be done, studying to be done. ohman.

its like i've got to train everyday, and then i get to rest on friday and hopefully sleep on either sat or sunday.

and then there's hw and studying to be done.

on monday i've got band.
tuesday got training. well with victoria. but i do train everyday. well i cant go for it anymore cos got tuition at 5.
wednesday's my only free day, oh yay. unless i play squash, then go for my run.
thursday i've got piano. then after that got tuition. then after that need to run.
friday got band. then got cell.
saturday got band. afternoon got to study. evening got to run.
sunday got church, then got training with victoria.

hopefully i can get my saturday afternoon to just rest and sleep.

man like i've got barely enough time to practise piano, barely enough time to study, revise and actually understand what to do. barely enough time to rest.

but, i'm gonna trust God (: i'm sure he gave me this hectic schedule, for a reason. so yeap, just gonan continue to trust in him (:

just had cell, the topics are like really interesting. our congregation's like soo gonna mature so much (:

man i left my com on the whole night by accident.

damn got band, sigh. alright see you guys (:

2010-01-24T21:25:00.002+08:00

wow ashbel's a stalker.

i think stalkers are gay, sorry man, but this is how i feel. cant stop me from saying that, can you?

well, today was really interesting. played worship, but there's like lots of room for improvement though! haha.

then after that went over to lauren's house and play squash. well chris and i were playing but we didnt manage to finish our game cos he had a blister, so we played winner takes all and so he won (: but i think the results would be different if we played to the end.

then after that went for time trial! haha the run was actually quite satisfying. i think. at the end bradley ended up having some injury. so we had to carry him all the way to the end. and thats what we did. like supported him all the way to the end.

ohyeah then after the run, i kinda lost my phone D: i'm hoping the other cross runners took it. havent told them yet. if by tuesday i dont get my phone got to tell them. cant keep it from them forever, can i?

im gonna go hardcore training already. my running actually have been improving (: quite steadily.

sigh, i dont know what to do.

2010-01-22T23:52:00.002+08:00

i just realised that i've got 8 weeks to nationals.

i just realised that i've been ranting about cross alot.

i just realised that i've been really stressed up for nothing.

i just realised that me putting i just realised is kinda dumb.

haha well, yeah. 8 weeks baby. got some tips from crossies in church. apparently you get speed from stamina. amazing. i'm gonna hit 20 mins, by hook or by crook. i will do it. even though i'm a freshmen, i know i can do it. got a race next sunday. considering whether i should go. cos like i really dont wanna miss church, but at the same time i need some exposure to how a race feels like.

man this is really confusing. can you guys help me. i'm really confused, and dont know what to do.

gah i'm making myself confused for nothing! dumb me.

well cell was actually quite nice today. learnt lots of stuff.

before cell during soccer i was like running like some mad retard all over the place trying to steal the ball away. man i was so retarded then.

tomorrow i'm gonna try run 10k. i think. dont know heh. i'm gonna do something i guess. got to train more on stamina, so there'd be more speed.

okay i frigging sound like some running geek. got to shut up.

got band tomorrow, sigh. got to do it anyways. see ya guys.

2010-01-21T22:20:00.002+08:00

tired, stressed out.

still figuring out how to balance hw, studying, band, cross and most importantly God in my life. perhaps i should just depend on God, and he'll make away (: uncle cecil talked about it in one of his lessons before in the year.

haha gonna do worship this sunday. still figuring out how to play you hold me now, and some chris tomlin songs.

ran 5k today. managed to hit 23 mins (: actually i know that i could have ran faster. i didnt push myself enough. damn. but i know on the day itself ill push myself to the max, or until i faint. i'll make myself burn out on the day. hopefully i dont die D:

my back kinda hurts. but it forces me to sit up straight which gives me this good posture (:

well, got a bio test tomorrow. got to go crash into my bed now. bye!

2010-01-20T22:19:00.003+08:00

run run run. thats all i can think about right now.

man improving 5 mins within 1 and a half months's kinda hard. especially when you really need to catch up with the other people. ohman i think i'm gonan die. i cant.. wait. i can do this. i know i can

gah cross has been putting alot of pressure on me. like how am i supposed to improve within that.. wait. its possible. i've got to stop doubting. doubt would lead to me not doing it. i know i can do this. cos i'm doing this, for the Lord(:

he has blessed me with a talent for running. and i shall use it to bless his name. oh Jesus would you help me with my training? for through you all things are possible

well, shouldnt think too much about it. got bio test on friday. i guess i'll just crash everything tomorrow (:

got piano tomorrow too. and joanne's korean friend's coming tomorrow heh. its gonna be rather interesting haha

alright, i've got to learn to sleep earlier. besides i need it. posts are getting shorter i know, i'm sorry. i can just keep on going and on, but i need the rest.

have an awesome time with whatever you're doing!

2010-01-18T22:07:00.001+08:00

man, i've been getting tired.

why did band had to end so late today. 6 50 pm. its supposed to end at 630 right? or isit stop practising at 630. sigh, so tired.

got training tomorrow. first session gonna be scary. just gonna lay low and hope i dont disgrace myself tomorrow D:

school's been getting tougher and tougher. as the hw runs and crashes at me, i'm dumbfounded by the amount of hw we get each day. wow haha okay thats exagerration. but at least i managed to use the word dumbfounded. YAY ENGLISH IMPROVING.

yeap, got the playlist working. if you guys got any special requests about songs and stuff just put it onto the cbox and hopefully i'll get you what you want (;

bye!

2010-01-16T22:58:00.002+08:00

hellooo.

haha so many things have been happening within the week.

highlights:

God has been working amazingly in such unique ways in my life.

i'm joining school cross team!

hw kinda sucks.

churchhh

haha i shall talk about today i guess. hmmm, today was really good. like cos i ran to church with bryan quah with a bag full of my stuff. haha thats kinda weird right. mummy made us run a longer route which was 'safer'. oh well, it was satisfying though (:

i'm changing my playlist guys. look out for new songs (:

i'm gonna start training hard for cross. season's starting soon, better be as good as them!

haha well, its kinda stressful. its like they're all fast runners. 5k within 20 or less. and i'm like at, 23. actually my average's 25. so its like wow. 5 mins, thats alot of difference.

gah better sleep soon. oh i had afterglow service today. shared my testimony (: hehe.

so yeap! thats today. and stuff. haha

2010-01-10T23:32:00.003+08:00

YAY. THREADLESS TEES ARE HERE.

HERE I COME GUITAR AND COOKIE SHIRT. HAHA WHOOO.

no i'm not selling you one chris.

so hmmm, yeah. today was pretty cool i guess. church was awesomee. haha took another pic. sheryl's leaving for Australia. well even though i'm not that close to her, she is one of us. so yeah, i feel sad, somewhat. oh well!

hmmm, so yeap. after that went out for lunch. OMYCRAP. DO YOU KNOW THAT TOPMAN HAS A SALE NOW. LIKE MOREEE SALE. i should totally check out cotton on. not sure whether the 50% sale's still there D:

haha sorry, i'm a shopper. and a guy too. so live with it.

then i slept till dinner. wow.

school's tomorrow. i cant wait to kill myself with amath.

my playlist aint working for some reason.

i think that chicken can be a new swear word.

why am i talking randomly.

oh well! so i better end this post soon. got to sleep haha. i've been sleeping lots. but on school days, its like what, 6 hours per day. so yeah, got to get some sleep!

see youuu.

2010-01-09T22:08:00.002+08:00

hello.

i just realised my playlist aint working. maybe its time to change it heh.

so yeap, today was actually quite alright. i woke up at like 1215. haha kinda slept late too.

so yeap, today i actually tried studying. i think i'm gonna die in bio. there're just too many cheem terms D: i think i'm gonna die. its like really sooooooo cheem.

physics too.

okay all the subjects are cheem, partly cos i havent had lessons with those subjects yet.

okay i'm gonna rush through this post cos mummy wants me off like soon.

so yeah, then i went for a run, 5km. nothing much. but somehow it just seemed so hard. like when i was running my calf felt really heavy, and the area around my ankle started to ache. well i hope it doesnt happen when i continue my training.

oh yeah, happy birthday carmen! YOU'RE A YEAR OLDER, OLDIEEEEE. HAHAHA.

oh well. soo i guess thats it (:

here's a nice song for you guys!

2010-01-07T21:04:00.003+08:00

so much for posting more.

haha i was helping out with sec 1 orientation the past 3 days. i took 1 noah of 2010, and i think they're pretty cool. even though they're such immature kids by saying ' EH MENTOR LEE YOU KNOW HE SAID THAT___ ' , i believe that that class would be one of the best classes, growing together and stuff like that.

so basically i was following them around all them time and stuff.

hmmm, oh during the performing arts concert band seriously rocked. the sec 1s really enjoyed it, and i was like actually really happy listening to them, saying how great our sound was. performing billie jean and highlights from jersey boys, we owned CO with their canon in D (:

i really hope that this year we'd get more and awesome new members. it'd be like oh so damn awesome.

hmmm, so i officially began classes today.

sec 3 books are just so thick. ohman like seriously. i just wish that i could just go back to lower sec.

well, i guess chem's kinda alright. i really hope i dont fail anything this year.

sec 3's gonna be like the killer year. im, not gonna repeat the same mistakes the others did. i'm, going to study, and actually become a nerd. i think. oh well! haha.

so yeap, friday. got band tomorrow. cca open house! i hope, that the people actually join band. like really. like join band with an open heart, not because of propaganda messages.

yeah. oh bradley showed me this song. so i'll leave you guys to this, and enjoy(:

2009-12-31T12:50:00.002+08:00

with about 400 posts, this blog have been going well (:

2009's coming to an end, and i shall do my reflection post now.

so many things have happened in 2009. God has been really great to me this year. he's just been awesome, watching over me lots. and so i'll just dedicate this post to him (:

so let me come up with a list of what i did in 2009:

1) i went to china, amazing
2) i ran 16km in 1h 40mins
3) made change to friends lives
4) cam whored for the first time
5) survived sec 2 life
6) got into triple science
7) did not get attached, i'm serious. to the guys who think its immpossible, it is. so what if i know alot of girls
8) sent 3000 over messages in a month
9) passed chinese!
10) and of course, grown closer to God (:

2009 has just been an amazing year. with class 2a, it'd been great. it made me realise, that i shouldnt try to make friends, they'll make themselves.

as the songs of the academy is.. play, i've just been wondering, how did i get the person i am. well, its just by the grace of God, that i'm like that (:

so now with an injured arm, i cant really do much exercise, and perhaps its time to take a break.i injured it while playing soccer, when this pravier fell on me while trying to tackle him heh.

what else has 2009 done to me hmm.. i made new friends! closer relationships. its been great. during all those church camps, where i got to pray for lots of people to renew their commitment with God. it has just been amazing.

ohmygoodness jarrod said the lamest thing ever. i was like ' i'm doing my reflection post ' then he's like ' so you can see yourself in the post? '

ohmygoodness jarrod what's in your mind!

omygoodness. this post is like 5 days late

okay nvm, i'll just wrap this up quickly!

so my new year resolutions!

1) PERHAPS, watch a horror movie D;
2) run regularly, 3 times a week plus a regular 15km run every month.
3) DONT FAIL AMATH. HOPEFULLY.
4) practice piano more!
5) study properly, for the first time.
6) do something cool!
7) grow closer to God even more!
8) post more regularly!
9) grow closer to friends.
10) dont make sec 3 another year which is gonna be wasted.

SO YES. TEN. HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS (:

2009-12-28T20:37:00.009+08:00

with a click on facebook, my whole computer lags.

wow, thanks guys. like really. thanks lots for all the wishes. i had a wish come true this birthday, like people just singing a song for me, even though i dont know them that well. but the feeling was amazing, and i haven't smiled like that in years (: i'm sure mummy and daddy were really happy to see me like that haha

SO CHINA. hmmm, well.

for starters, the food really sucked. it was all so oily and salty! well, i guess thats because we're not used to it yet, so i guess its cool with the chinese eating that

hmmm, i went to six places, so i'll just talk about what i did there!

so first stop, was this place called dalian!

the lian is the number 2 sound so its not big face okay!

haha so what did i do at da lian hmmm, well i dont know. but the SNOOOOWWWW. haha i was so happy there was the snow there. but out of the 5 places i went, thisplace was supposed to be like the warmest, but it was so cold. the wind was horrendous. i dont mind low temperatures, but the wind's a killer D:

people who have been to winter countries understand what i mean haha. so yeap, wind was a killer.

oh yes did i mention, i spent 5 hours waiting for the other people in my tour group. their flight was like delayed for so long, stupid snow heh. bad timing, it was kinda horrible staying there, but fun i guess! i dont have the pictures, its all with daddy and joanne heh. man i cant remember what i did at dalian. nvm! next location :D

with about 6 hours on a bus, half a day's wasted. i think half the trip was wasted on travelling heh.

so next place! SHENYANG.

haha i thought the tour guide was really cool. the way she told us stories about the place was really awesome. like we went to this prison, where the POWs during WWII was hosted. it was really sad too, like thinking of it's kinda sad. so many people died, living it so harsh conditions. sigh.

oh well! haha i had a snow fight with joanne and joshann during then too! it was, kinda bad. cos when the snow goes into your shirt, it melts and then, you freeze D: HAHA. oh if you wanna know how snow's like? well. its frozen ice, being smashed up. soft and stuff like that. thats snow, really.

again, the food kinda sucked. it sucked all the way, i think!

so next location, JILIN!

nothing much there haha.like we were supposed to visit some temple sort of place, but it was really really cold. so it was kinda boring.

the skies were dark too. so yeah, cold place. in every place we were brought to places that sold ginseng, and stuff like that. i think that china people are, like really persistent. they'll try their best to make you buy their stuff, i guess its because of the commission, and one more thing - their pay's really low. its all cheap labour, so they're like sort of trying to make more money

its kinda sad i guess. oh well, that's china for them.

so hmmm, next place! CHANGCHUN.

oh wait i think it was changchun on second destination, or was it third? haha odnt know! well dont care :D

i think i skiied there, it was really really fun :D and i got to drive this buggy there haha. so thats how driving feels like. i was gonna do a 360 turn, but i decided to be nice to joanne, but you know what happened instead? she did a 360 turn to me instead. haha i think she's crazy. oh well!

so what else, oh huskies were made to pull us, i thought, that was kinda bad. sigh, dont know heh.

facebook's taking forever to load. facebook officially hates me.

i wanna like really thank the 90 over people personally wished my a happy birthday. its so much better like that. on the other hand, my facebook's taking forever to load.

so second last stop, harbin!

haha it was the best place, an icy world full of goodness. haha the ice sculptures were quite nice. its just amazing how they do it.

hmmm, i went to this sort of disney ice world thingy place, all ice sculptures and stuff haha.

i'm lazy to think D:

so next stop, beijing!

oh yes did i mention, on christmas i fell sick. was down with a flu, and had a cough. how great's that.

and on my birthday i climbed the great wall of china :D

oh you know something, when i woke up on up birthday do oyu know what my sister did to wish me? she took my hands and started to slap me and was like ' HAPPY BIRTHDAY '

and more slapping. what a way to wish me eh?

well, beijing food was kinda better i guess. oh i got this hoodie, so when you zip up all the way till it covers your face, its a monkey! those who're going to the watchnight service can see it :D

so this china. well, one thing's for sure, now winter countries for me. only autumn. winter's like so so cold. but the snow's great :D

alright, so thats my china for me! WATCHNIGHT SERVICE YAY.

2009-12-16T21:28:00.002+08:00

CHRISTMAS. BIRTHDAY. IN CHINA.

WITH SNOOOOOWWW

haha i'm kinda excited for the trip tomorrow. well only for the snow part though! my life long dream shall be fufilled on 18th december, dont know what time. GAH SNOWSNOWSNOW HAHAH. i sound like some retard.

oh yes did i mention. i ran like 15.8km, okay 16km today. ohmy goodness my legs are seriously aching now. i took like super long. 1h 40 mins. really lonh eh? haha. but yeah, i did it! IN YOUR FACE PEOPLE. SO I WAS CRAZY EH? I DID IT. IN YOUR FACE :D

china tomorrow. hmmm, oh if you guys want anything give me an sms okay! i'm making a list haha.

oh i got a red jansport like quite a while ago. haha i think its really awesome. new school bag (:

oh stanley showed me this song.

listen okay! its good, really.

enjoy :D

2009-12-15T20:50:00.002+08:00

i think i'm going crazy.

i've been watching too much drama these few days. first its cinderella man, but i stopped at episode 7 cos mysoju doesnt like me.

so now i'm watching boys over flowers. oh someone stop me, its too addictive D:

but boys over flowers is actually quite nice. oh wait, why do they put the drama as boys before flowers in mysoju? hmmm. does anyone know?

thursday midnight. snow here i come!

yeap, my flight's on thursday midnight. SNOW SNOW SNOW. haha its like a dream come true. my life long dream, of seeing snow. feeling it. ~~tasting it~~ okay maybe not taste, but, SNOW. OHMY, its gonna be so amazing.

oh yes i'm gonna stay in shangri-la hotel too! ohmy its gonna be like so cool! haha i sound like some deprived kid but, its like gonna be so cool (: hotel towels smells quite cool haha.

okay thats just weird. nvm! gonna watch boys over flowers now (:

here's a song!

2009-12-14T20:14:00.000+08:00

hey world

its just yet another day, of doing nothing.

i think my blog's gonna be dead soon. got to start posting more, a short post per day would do.

hmmm, life's going quite alright so far. went for a run today, a tiring 5.5km with lots of uphill and downhills, and the slope was so steep, in 30 mins. i would say that its kinda slow. cos i should be able to run faster. well, i guess its because of the many 2km runs i've been having my body's not used to it anymore.

think i'm gonna try run 10km, oh wait. its like a 12km run. i run to newton, then from newton run to King Albert Park. i'm so gonna die. hmmm, to run or not to run. i guess i'm gonna run it on wednesday, before the flight on thursday midnight.

oh did i mention, i'm going to china. leaving this coming thursday midnight. so let me try to remember the places that i'm going to. hmmm, first there's shen zhou i think, then there's da lian, then there's _____, then there's harbin, and lastly beijing!

i'd be away from the 18th to the 28th, so that means birthday and christmas would be spent there!

OH NO I'M TURNING FOURTEEN. you know what that means? i'm becoming older D: but its okay! 14 aint that old yet. but its really awesome, to know that its gonna be my birthday soon (:

CHRISTMAS. YAY CHRISTMAS! haha christmas is the most amazing time of the year.its gonna be so awesome. i was gonna buy like lots of people presents but, due to unforeseen circumstances, i couldnt get you guys your presents. nevertheless! its okay, cos next year's gonna be a blast.

FOURTEEN. i cant wait to be fifteen. its just so amazing haha. i cant wait to laugh at you oldies when you turn fifteen next year and i'm still fourteen (:

alex just asked me to analyse his piece of work. i must say that his poem, is one brilliant piece of poetry. its direct, but it sets the mind thinking.

alright, so i guess that'll do for today (:

here's a little something.

2009-12-11T17:48:00.004+08:00

surely it's not happening.

the emo me's coming back. i've got to shun it.

it just seems that i'm much more vunerable now. i've been shedding more tears. i've been sad more often. and i'm not smiling as much as before.

why.

that question just keeps on coming. as the song of michael buble plays, i'm just thinking. why did i become like this.

maybe, its just mood swings. maybe its just like some andropause, and then it'd go away soon after. thats what i really hope that'd happen. shun the emoness!

haha cinderella man just seems so cool (: its an awesome show! go watch! really, trust me. its an awesome show. for the girls, yes. i'm watching a drama. so? what's so bad about guys watching dramas. its like girls reading manga.

michael buble seems really awesome. his music's actually quite nice, haha i'll go and showcase a song at the end of this post.

the sky's really beautiful today. it seems a good day for a run. i think i'll just let my body rest. on monday i'll start exercising again. i've been really tired these few days.

i just wished i could go out, i realised that i haven't been spending enough time with friends, and mummy insists that i've been going out too much. no logic.

well i just wanna spend time with church friends. thats just what i wanna do.

pokemon seems so addictive. haha!

enjoy :D

2009-12-09T22:14:00.002+08:00

here i am, praising God for his goodness.

havent posted for a long time. so now, i commemorate my 414th post.

too many things have happened since i stopped posting. i've got to start posting more.

i'll just go on with the main highlights!

ONE.

church camp!

oh how awesome was that time. it was really tiring though.

camp, was just a truly amazing experience that i cant describe. even though many things happened during camp, with all that spiritual warfare and stuff, still there were many breakthroughs. i felt it, and it happened. amen to that!

the games were like really really cool. like with our awesome log skills, we managed to get some game going for the games com okay! SO GAMES COM PEOPLE BE GRATEFUL.

there's, just too many things going through my mind now.

i'm just, so grateful towards God. he's, just so amazing. he's just the God who saves. he managed to make me break down finally on the last day. indeed, he is God. He is amazing. he lives, and he loves me and i love him.

camp, was just such an amazing time with God. i was really praying with Chris for like lots of people. and until now, my spirit's still so tired. i better get an early night haha

so yeap! after camp was like really spending time with uncle, aunt, wengwai and wengyan! it was really fun playing with them, talking with them, going out with them and most importantly, the shopping!

i got 2 tops from topman, some crocodile pants and some pants from hangten. but hangten pants are really good.

i feel that stores like giordano, bossini, and hang ten are really losing out now. with they're uhm, not too nice designs not alot of people actually buy their things. i'm sure their sales figures are really going down right now. so what can they do, if the people doesnt like it?

well, my train of thoughts come to an end here, for now. i'll try my best to post tomorrow okay!

2009-11-27T23:06:00.002+08:00

so this is how a sun burn feels like.

yeap, i'm down with sunburn. major sunburn.

went to wild wild wet with neighbours yesterday, and instead of getting a tan, (well i did get darker), i got sun burnt. all over my body.

it hurts bad, and its worse when people just keep on hitting it. well it doesnt hurt, its just, shocking. like someone hitting you real fast. oh well!

so yeap, i just caught a christmas carol, i guess its pretty cool. having a real similar storyline with ghosts of ex girlfriend's past. i shall give a review now!

Movie: A Christmas Carol

A Christmas Carol, is indeed a movie which leaves you satisfied in the end. In the beginning it gives you an effect which makes you think 'the guy sucks'. As the Ghosts appear, its rather scary. However, when he just turns over a new leaf it justs seems so satisfying. And therefore, it is actually a movie, worth watching.

Rating: 3/5

OHOH. lifeng kept pulling my shirt, like joanne when they're scared. its really weird having a 20 year old( i think) woman pulling your shirt. weird.

okay i dont wanna write anymore, bye.

2009-11-24T00:28:00.002+08:00

the first part of the post shall go out to ashley, as requested.

YOU'RE AWESOME.

happy now?

haha, well, i had the greatest time of my life yesterday. i laughed the crap out of myself. the next paragraph shall explain how the events lead to me laughing the crap out of me.

well recently, kenneth, ashley, joanne and i have reunited, as the awesome four neighbours haha. like we could go back till when we were all small and i was that stupid guy, but thats not the point. the thing is we have been meeting up, going from house to house talking, catching up, alot. well its really nice, telling each other our personal lives sort of thing to each other. it just brings us together again, oh how i miss those times, when we were small.

it would be really awesome if we could just travel back in time, remembering who we were.

were.

but what matters now is that we've been having fun (: we're like hanging out quite alot now, i think. heh. but its really cool.

so yesterday, we all came over, and played the awesome taiti, were i won i think. a few games. and then we were bored, so we played indian poker! ohmy it was fantastic, even though there were only four of us. in order for kenneth no make me change my card, he had to eat the pancake, and uhh, what else did he do? forgot heh.

but it was so cool. we played indian poker for like forever i think.it was really fun. like when i had an ace, kenneth made me change and then i got another ace and he got a 3 or something, it was so damn funny.

and the way ashley laughed. ohmy goodness, you'd die laughing! as she has a jaw problem ( i have no idea how it works) she laughs like this : ' HEHEHEHE ' and when she laughed yesterday she snorted .

i am so sorry for posting that Ashley.

ohyes, so it was like retarded. nothing could describe how much fun we had yesterday. it was, magical. indeed it was. it was such an awesome day. days like these, dont come easily. i enjoyed every moment yesterday. oh how great it was (:

so yeap, kenneth has his choir sing out concert tomorrow. it kinda sucks, cos i cant go as mummy says i cant. dont know why D:

sometimes i feel that mummy thinks that when we get to go out so much, we go out of control and then bad stuff happen, and we're not mature enough to think for ourselves. oh mother, i do not understand you sometimes. but i'm sure you have a reason though, cos you're my mummy.

plants vs zombies, oh wow. i must say, that its kinda addictive. i finished the game, but not done with the mini games heh.

somehow i feel that people are just not being themselves anymore. there just seems to be a hidden part of them, which they dont reveal, or try not at least. sigh. i'm sorry, ______.

why do people just change, and not be themselves? i feel, that they're just trying to fit into our changing world, i think. it really breaks my heart to see people, being someone else i know they're not. i mean lik if its changing for the better of course its a good thing. it just sucks when someone, reveals they're dirty side and then just sticks with that attitude towards people.

oh well! got cyber wellness thing on wednesday and thursday heh. how do i get to beatty secondary school!i think its really near our house, but how to get there. that indeed is a question, that is questionable. okay was just weird.

11 days to church camp! oh how exciting. CAMP CAMP CAMP. haha but i've got to go for pre-camp, so 10 days!

haha i just cant wait for camp.

have been reading manga recently. it seems quite exciting.

haha manga and plants vs zombies are just distracting me from my post. so i'll leave you guys with a song, to enjoy. in fact, its one of my personal favourites (:

2009-11-20T01:11:00.000+08:00

damnit.

the guilt thing, confidence problems, and decision making is getting from bad to worse.

oh its 130. oh well.

like, i dont know why. those stupid things i've done in the past. i, just can't seem to forget them. i know that i'm forgiven, for whatever dumb thing i've done to others, and stuff like that but somehow, it just keeps coming back. ohmy i feel horrible.

confidence problems. what else could i say? i somehow just need the reaffirmation everytime i do something. its just dumb, but i can't seem to help it. how now brown cow.

decision making. I CANT EVEN DECIDE WHETHER I WANT TO WATCH ASTRO BOY WHEN THERE'S A FREE TICKET, POPCORN AND DRINK. oh my wth is wrong with me.

this is just dumb. sigh.

2009-11-18T21:49:00.002+08:00

hello world.

today we had some prefect thing. it was at smu haha, ohoh. smu's like so cool. they've like got this basement which connects all the schools, its quite amusing. like super cool haha.

so yeah, during the event well, i was supposed to be at some registration booth. here was what i said like alot:

" Good Morning, may i know what school you are from? Are you Mdm/Mr ________. Could you sign here please?"

" Here is your resource pack, booklet, folder and name tag which you are required to wear throughout the event. Please proceed to the Auditorium over there, thank you."

How retarded's that.

well, i was kinda stumbling alot. its, because of my major confidence issues. yes people, i suffer from confidence issues, which is not really good. it really sucks. i know i can do it but somehow, i always need someone to reassure me, that everything would just go well. thank God that Alex was with me and he knew how to act in these kind of situations.

gone, like Frank Sinatra
like Elvis and his mom
like AL Pacino's cash nothing lasts in this life
my highschool dreams are gone
my childhood sweets are gone
life is a day that doesn't last for long

that song's really amusing. like, gone.what would you do when, everything's gone? think about that people.

i'm not moving

i really like that song, the man who cant be moved. its, a beautiful song. the tune's nice, lyrics are good. what more could i say?

my thoughts, could be like the nile river, almost never ending.

is there a light to every tunnel?

thats a really good question. think about it. do you think so? OF COURSE THERE IS - with God . i really dont understand the Big Bang Theory. its like, putting a toyota, blowing it up and hoping a Lamborghini to appear. like, seriously. wth?

oh well. my brain, hurts. like it seriously hurt alot today. throughout the whole event it hurt like so bad. except on the bus, where it hurt exceptionally alot. its like i was trying to make myself relax, and get rid of all the thoughts in my mind. and when i thought of things, it hurt quite alot.

if you had a headache before, you'd know what i'm talking about.

oh and on the bus ride like someone drop her stuff and then when i picked some stuff up for her when i woke up she was like 'thank you for your kindness'. i had no idea what i did. like i think i smiled dont know. my brain hurt too much. i felt like puking on the bus. it was so hard trying to control myself.

there happens to be too many facebook groups, which actually is true. for example, ' i hate untangling my earphones', and 'mum/dad, i got your point. you can stop talking now '. its, really true. aint it?

daddy's birthday tomorrow. i hope, he likes the book heh. its some english book, to help him with his english :D haha, got it the english thingy today at smu.

my brain's too tired. cant think of anything else to write.

here's the video i promised, by You Me At Six. they're really good. listen okay!

2009-11-17T15:36:00.002+08:00

hello.

my life, apparently has been going rather screwed up now.

like, i've been getting the weirdest dreams ever.

and please note, i hardly dream. its, getting weirder and weirder.

oh well. recently i listened to You Me At Six, they're really good. at the end of this post i'll put up a song by them. make sure you listen okay!

so yeap. ohoh i've also been playing plants vs zombies. its quite fun actually. but too much of it is just, weird.

i just realised my posts have been getting shorter and shorter.

i just came back from some smu event briefing where i'm down for. got to wake up at like 6 tomorrow. so, tiring. i think i'd just die. i'm like exhausted.

the weather has been just simply screwed up.

forgot it i have no inspiration to say anything else. enjoy the song.

2009-11-14T20:27:00.002+08:00

Apparently, my blog posts are sort of in demand. well, i guess, i'll do a post today (:

hmm, today we had barker carnival. honestly, i didnt feel that it was that great.

i started out the day with the band. and then suddenly michael asks me to play the bells, like on the day it self. michael what are you trying to do, do you want to kill me. and yeah, i did, play quite a few wrong notes. so yes, i started off the carnival on a bad note.

next i had no money at all. i lost my tickets. seriously wth man. but luckily, joanne had money, people gave me tickets and joel leow gave me 3.50 so i had a couple of tickets to do some stupid things. i didnt really play alot of games, all i did was like uhh, go around the stalls, selling cookies muffins and stuff like that, picking up pellets. oh how great is that.

and the last part of the day, sitting at some information counter cum lost and found place. and then fish started to piss me off. well, all i did was like just go around telling people not to touch the Lamborghinis, and direct people to places.

well, i think like what led to a stupid and boring carnival for me was:
1) i had no cash. this meant i couldnt play games, with friends, without friends and stuff like that. and it also meant i couldn't exactly buy any food or drinks or anything. so yeah.

2) not exactly alot of friends to play with. like when after that group of keane and joanne and barnabas and other people came they played games together. i was like, with oscar alone. and we also had no cash. but even if we did have cash, there wasnt like much people to play with. so it kinda sucked.

and therefore, carnival for me wasnt that fun. i shall play plants vs zombies to cheer me up (:

2009-11-11T15:34:00.003+08:00

facebook is officially screwed up.

one of my posts had dont know how many thousand comments and likes. like uhm, okay? wth is wrong with it. oh well.

yeah, oh, i was supposed to go to js today, but i couldnt cos mummy said no. and partially cos i'm like kinda tired now. so yeah. but, i wanna go to js. somehow. meet all those people again.

i guess, i'm gonna take up squash lessons soon. but its gonna take up my next 8 sunday afternoons. and its like 150 bucks, 2 hours per week. do you think its worth it? hmmm, but i guess, i'm gonna go for it. gonna discuss it with mummy and daddy tonight.

oh yeah, joanne's coming back tonight. those 10 days, seemed so short. but,she has to come back sooner or later, right? well, it looks like i cant use the com as much as i could as she would be stealing it from me. oh well.

yay, i'm gonna lead cell this friday (: matthew 26? hmmm, oh for those people who actually read my blog and are from cell, be prepared for an awesome time for i'm gonna lead! :D haha, decided on a theme of sin, faith and renewal. sounds, weird. talking about sin. but yeah, it came to me. revelation. thank God for that (:

haha, yeah. gah i dread practising my piano. having to use my brain, but, i have to. gonna go to grade 8 soon.

OHOH. PEOPLE. you know on my last post there's that song right? can you guys help me find the piano score for that song pleaseee. i cant seem to find it anywhere. so yeap, you'd be benifiting too cos you can play it too! haha oh well.

guess, i'm gonna play wolfteam now. oh my why am i doing this. oh well, see ya guys (:

2009-11-10T22:16:00.003+08:00

listen. WATCH. NOW. trust me, this is a song worthwhile listening to. its, beautiful. its a really nice song.

2009-11-08T20:13:00.002+08:00

hello world.

i'm so awesome. i tried DOTA for the first time today, and i killed keane like 5 times i think. i'm so sorry keane. a part of my blog post shall go to you later!

yeap, church was cool today. played captain's ball. it was really fun, but because of my screwed up throw, we lost. but it was fun though!

chris, keane, thomas and some guys then used my towel and started to hit each other. interesting. but it kinda hurt though. oh well! but it was cool though.

so yeap, after that we wanted to watch love happens, but ended up going to play lan instead. we played like 3.3h of lan. quite fun actually. played games like poke the ogre, which was apparently spastic, cs, left 4 dead, and dota, and other cool games heh.

yeap, i tried dota for the first time. and apparently it was quite fun. and yeah, keane and i were like people who never played it before. and apparently, i killed him like 5 times. so it was like so damn cool. hahaha, sorry keane! but yeah, it was quite fun actually.

apparently, keane and i were like the noobiest among the people we went with. nevetheless, we had a splendid time playing the computer for 3 and a half hours. yeap.

so hmm, okay. the next paragraph goes out to keane:

dear keane. hello! MOUSEHUNT FTW! haha hmmm, with that click of the mouse, i have killed you in dota. i am so sorry for that, for you do not know how to play dota. neither do i. but, it was fun playing with you too. infact, i killed you 6 times or something. for that, i am sorry. for you are awesome! a real great friend indeed. not getting too pissed for killing you 6 times . heh. but we shall play dota soon again okay!

what do you want people to remember you as, when you're gone?

2009-11-07T15:50:00.002+08:00

as the song, this love, by the veronicas play, i just wonder.

what would happen, if that person just showed up.

what would happen, if you just did something that you just regretted.

what would happen, if you had to break up over a cookie.

okay the last one was just random. yeah, i've, been having thoughts like this. those, kinda thoughts which would just keep you thinking about it. those, sort of thoughts which would just keep on bugging you. don't know why.

it just seems, the emo bug's coming back. again. after shunning it last year, it's coming back. somehow. dont know. but, i guess i'd be fine after a while. i'm just tired, thats all. i think.

i'm feeling, kinda tired. faitgue. no, it's winning the battle again.

had band just now. oh playing the normal clarinet's painful. it hurts my lips. but, at least i dont have to carry some big ass bass clarinet. well its not that big, i think.

i officially think that, facebook is overated. like why do we even go use it? cos everyone's doing it. that is actually a mistake. following the crowd. i mean, there's no harm using facebook. playing games like mousehunt (mousehunt ftw!), pet society, restaurant city and stuff like that. but its just that you get stalked and stuff like that.

oh i managed to catch my sister's keeper on glendon's com yesterday. it was, sad. nice, but sad though. nevetheless, it was a great movie. i really liked it. its like damn awesome. you guys should try watching it (: ohoh, i'll try and give my rating about that movie! it may not be too accurate cos i was kinda playing his guitar while watching it! (:

Movie: My sister's keeper

this movie has a very interesting plot, using the modern world, and personal emotions, sicknesses, biological technology to come up with a story like that. it has a very strong plot. with a very strong impact being placed on viewers. the last scence, last part, was really nice. the way that it was being directed, oh so great. so yes, i loved this movie. and everyone should.

rating : 4.85/5

yeap, the synopsis ain't that detailed. but let me tell you, the plot is brilliant. simply, brilliant. oh well.

so yeap, i've, got nothing else. i think. haha. alright, bye.

BRMC 830, GAMES DAY TOMORROW. REMEMBERRR :D

2009-11-05T22:30:00.002+08:00

as it is late, and i've got to sleep, this post, shall just be sort of like a thought of the day. perhaps this would be in my daily posts (:

- what would happen,if time just stopped like that.

2009-11-04T22:20:00.002+08:00

hello.

i am tired.

my day today was tiring

oh how tired i am. boo hoo.

okay that's just stupid haha. hmmm, but yeah. my calves are hurting, quite badly. so yeah. you'll understand, soon i guess

so today, i had to go to smu for some reason which i dont know. i think its because we have to do duty or something. yeah, they're getting help. ohoh, i saw bryan, isit? yeah. bryan chan. haha its quite cool, never knew that he was a prefect.

yeah, so after that i went to ccab. ran 2km, and then played soccer. i was, a bit tired after that. and then it started to rain, so i was without an umbrella. wet, but it was fun walking in the rain though.

yeah, after that we went to serene centre to cool down. i got my island creamery stickers, i'm happy (: haha. those stickers are really cool. really. its so awesome. i know, i get amused over the stupidest things, well who cares!

so when i got home, i decided that i had to run, again. this time i ran 5km. the run was tiring, but actually not as tiring as i had expected. oh well.

band tomorrow. i feel so reluctant to go. oh well! this is how it is. so, what can i do?

2009-11-03T13:36:00.003+08:00

oh my crap. i am officially freaked out.

some random person just told me to go check out some porn site. its so scary.

(13:16) Diana: Hello :)
Sorry to add you like this. My name is Diana
(13:16) joel(: : uhh hi.
(13:16) Diana: :)
(13:16) joel(: : do i know you?
(13:16) Diana: I am the ex of someone you have on MSN
(13:17) joel(: : i am?
uhh, okay.
and who's the ex.
(13:17) Diana: He dared to cheat on me so I'm adding all of his contacts to show them the X videos we made together
(13:17) joel(: : uhhuh.
right.
(13:17) Diana: You can see them on ________________
(13:17) joel(: : so who's your ex?
(13:17) Diana: It's free but you have to confirm you're at least 18
don't give this link to anyone please _______________
(13:18) joel(: : uhm, okay?
(13:18) Diana: I am Diana...I took your address on my ex's MSN
(13:18) joel(: : so who's your ex.
(13:18) Diana: my ex left me 10 days ago
(13:18) joel(: : uhm, right.
(13:18) Diana: crap, my sister blocked me on MSN lol. I went to www.whydidyoublockme.com to find out
(13:19) joel(: : uhm, right.
(13:19) Diana: go look at ____________ if you want to know who it is
(13:19) joel(: : uhh, okay.
(13:22) joel(: : so who's this again?

well, honestly i'd think that, this is a scam. cos like as you can see '(13:18) Diana: crap, my sister blocked me on MSN lol. I went to www.whydidyoublockme.com to find out' , its like sort of stealing my msn already. but honestly, i think that, its a test from God. like, yeah. the devil only comes to steal kill and destroy. can i still shun him, even with this. gah i'm so freaked out now.

sigh, why does our world have to be like this. the 3 more major temptations, money, power and sex. why do people have to conform to the world. i mean, yes eveyone has a free will to do what they wanna do. but, why? yes God made this world to be an imperfect world. cant, everyone just be good?

that's a question people always ask. and, only turning to other religions. like, hinduism. they focus on universal peace. unfortunately, this world has only one God, and that is, Jesus.

ohwell, yeah. the website has been removed to protect you guys. but i think that, that so called Diana, is just some idiot hacker, advertising porn sites. well listen up diana, i dont give a damn about whatever you want to show me. i dont need it, and its not good for my soul and mind.

oh yes, i'm in debt. in mousehunt. bet you think that this is ridiculous. but yeah, i borrowed alot of money, just to buy some trap cos ronza was leaving today. so quickly borrow yesterday and bought it yesterday. its like sort of useful and stuff, so yeah. haha, i know. i'm a mh addict (: but its just so fun. somehow. the suspense of clicking the horn every 15 mins is overwhelming. haha. i think that, facebook games are a waste of time. but, why are alot of people just get hooked up on it? who knows. addiction, one of the most powerful things in our world. if used for a good cause, it'd be really good. i think.

so yeah. today, i'm gonna have my run again. tomorrow's gonna be a run with swimming. i have to tire myself out. haha. hope my sprain can recover fully soon!

lazy to talk about anything else. so yeap, bye (:

2009-11-02T20:26:00.003+08:00

helloo.

i saw the post that joanne wrote. yeah, i had some major adrenaline rush yesterday. haha weird. but it was so fun being like super high. i could finally let loose, in like don't know how long. it was, really fun. i feel that everyone should just be high, hyper and happy all the time. like why have sorrows and stuff like that? its just, wasting your life away.

so yeah, joanne left the house, and daddy and joshann sent her off at the airport, and i'm at home. i'm somehow feeling bad. like, i should have followed her or something. but, i cant do anything now, can i?

alright, i shall be nice. later on i'll dedicate a part of my post to her (:

hmmm, i think i just wasted my life today. besides reading the book, it was like, quite wasteful. i think the only thing productive today was like running, and playing squash. okay i've got nothing.

the next paragraph is dedicated to joanne lee:

joanne lee. my sister. she can be nice, but can be irritating at times. always leaving her things in my room after using the computer. oh how annoying it is. nevertheless, she's my sister, and i should love her, as a loving brother (:

yeapp. well i found this song quite nice, so you guys shall listen to it !

the end.

2009-11-01T23:19:00.002+08:00

THIS IS A REQUEST FROM JOANNE. SHE MADE IT HERSELF. ITS SUPPOSED TO BE A BOX. ENJOY.

2009-11-01T18:41:00.003+08:00

HI JOEL IS HAVING SOME SORT OF MAJOR ADRENALINE RUSH AND HE IS BEING A VERY KIND SOUL TODAY. BECAUSE I'M GOING TO KOREA FOR TEN DAYS AND HE WILL HAVE COMPLETE FREEDOM NOT THAT HE DOESN'T ON NORMAL DAYS BUT HE CONSIDERS MY ABSENCE TO BE FREEDOM FOR HIM. WHATEVER. RETARD.

HE DOES NOT KNOW THAT I WON'T BUY ANYTHING FOR HIM. DON'T TELL HIM K.

OKAY MAJOR GUILT I'LL FIND SOMETHING FOR HIM THEN. ANOTHER HOLE IN MY WALLET SIGH.

DO YOU KNOW THAT JOEL IS A GUY. YEAH W-O-W. DO YOU KNOW THAT UM. I FORGOT.

2009-10-31T18:00:00.002+08:00

ohmycrap. do you know how stressful it is to teach a p3 girl chinese? you'd simply die. especially conversing in chinese. its just simply, stressful.

that is what i did. and i've got 2 more chapters to go. i'm gonna die. seriously. i cant do it. gahhh. chinese. the bane of all languages. oh well.

hmmm, today we had band. and, i'm pressed on to go to japan, yet again. sigh, i cant. its gonna clash with the family trip. whatever should i do. i do not know.

well, its raining now. what a heavy rain it was. that means, people would get into accidents. ambulances activated. great, one more person dying, or more.

oh well, but i managed to run around 2.6km before it rained. so yeah, i guess i'm satisfied. ohoh, that would actually mean i have completed at least 10km throughout the whole week! great, so i won't die that much on my run to kap. so anyone else's interested? comeon, you know you want to (: haha.

so yeah, hmmm, i guess, i'm gonna start my hardcore work out would start soon.

shit i cant take it. i cant go out tomorrow to escape with church people. and you know what i'm gonna do instead? teach chinese to joshann. wtcrap man. sigh, oh well!

find this song quite cool. listen! (click on it)

2009-10-30T17:25:00.002+08:00

last day of school, 2 Abraham of 2009. one of the greatest classes ever.

honestly i dont know what to say. as expected of the top class, we're all supposed to be like people who study oh so damn hard. but we're not! haha, in fact, we're a bunch of retards, except for a few people. but yes, 2a' 09. i'll miss you guys. haha, i've made real good friends, and met really nice people there, but some of them well, not so pleasant. but nevertheless, 2a' 09 was awesome.

so yes, as promised, i'd give some unofficial awards. okay, do you know who the best teacher of 2a is? our chinese teacher, mdm koh po li. think about, 2a. compare her with other teachers. does she even scold us? even if she scolds us, isit like super hardcore, and then she'd go all pmsey? surely not. she's like super nice, and just talks to us nicely. that, is the kind of teacher, that i believe that will gain respect from us students. and indeed lao shi, you did. so kudos to you!

in order to remember 2009, i didnt do any crazy stuff today. but instead, im gonna remember 2009, for me trying to cam whore for the first time! haha, like emerson and a couple of us tried to do it. like we went to the toilet, did some jumpshots, like went into the cubicle and did some stupid thing. oh i was caught on camera, so called giving jon a ______. so hard to run away from his buffness. like, whoever can break away from him is like super i tell you. but it was fun cam whoring though haha.

kenneth got a guitar from yu xuan. never mind, i'm gonna force daddy to buy me a guitar! haha. i really want one though. who wants to donate a guitar to me :D bet no one does. but never mind, i'll get a guitar, by hook or by crook. oh i also want drums. why dont you just buy me a whole jamming sutdio! haha oh well. hmmm, so yeah.

gonna go to bukit batok preaching point later. wonder what i'm gonna do there haha. i have no idea, actually. so yeap, see ya guys,

And have a great and awesome holidays!

2009-10-29T16:35:00.004+08:00

well, thank god. the sprain ain't that pain anymore.

its been hurting. and when i said that 'tying had never been so painful' , that _________ clarence went to act smart and was like 'haha.... so funny...' . okay, so what. laugh, for all i care. _____ kid.

so yeah, i think the prayer group that's going on in school's like gonna crash or something. cos people dont wanna come, and when we want to help them, they're like all attitude kinda thing. well, my prayer, to that person, is that you'd find God once again. and then just, be the person that you can be.

hmmm, results today. because of the typo, my average was pushed up by 0.6, and i got an average of 71. that ain't half bad, i guess. so that kinda means i'm in the top 40 in school! like 30 something, around there.

oh my crap, i must tell you this. i'm like marking my sister's p3 science work now, and the question's this:

The grasshopper is a pest to humans because it is hard to kill it

amazing, what a p3 girl who watches massive amounts of disney channel, nickelodeon and cartoon network can come up with. amazing i tell you

here are 2 other questions:

Q: Explain why you think the other object is not made of metal
A: The other object can float because metal sinks

Q: Which rat will survive for a longer time
A: None.

oh my, joshann. you've got a long way to go.

oh well, so hmmm, subject combination. i must say, it is a tideous process. well, thank god i've got mummy, who even though makes it sound so scary, she voiced it down to like choose whether i'm gonna take bio, and which humans. that's it. easy, i think. well, i think i'm gonna take pure history and half lit. gah, i dont know whether i can score for lit next year though. cos its not exactly my interest, but i know i can sort of score in it.

oh well, ohoh, anw guys, check this out. i bet you'd die when the old man comes out. enjoy!

whoever can watch the whole video without laughing at all, i'll give you a cookie (: and it must be on the first try okay!*

yeah, last day of school tomorrow. hmm, perhaps i'd do something crazy like slap lim hwee fern or something? dont know. i wanna leave a mark, like so i can remember 2009 for doing something awesome (:

*ri people are not allowed to try

2009-10-28T20:31:00.002+08:00

typing had never been so painful

i think today's post shall be a short one.

yes, as you can see, i'm experiencing much pain while typing. the pain is simply overwhelming. i sprained my left wrist while playing soccer today.it, hurts, so badly. so yeah.

and then i met michelle at kap after soccer.

okay thats it. i cant take the pain no more.

2009-10-27T23:29:00.001+08:00

yes, i've finally changed my skin, as promised!

haha i think this's gonna be temporary, or until i even bother finding a new skin.

yeah, enjoy guys!

2009-10-27T20:32:00.002+08:00

hello world.

yes, i am tired again.

i think my friends are crazy. they're like soccer fanatics or something.

i played soccer yesterday, today during recess, after school, and then when i went to joshua's house. that's like alot. and plus more than 2km on both days. my legs are dying. so i guess this is how its like to have a hardcore week of exercising. well, i've got to cover at least 2km tomorrow though.

so yes, exhaustion.

but still it was quite fun today! today we had some sports thingy. so like i kinda tried tchouckball! its really cool. like i've yet to youtube a video of it, but i guess it was kinda cool playing it though.

so yeah,ohoh. i'm also down for like some cyber wellness programme. its really, retarded. i guess i'm just gonna go there to meet new people? but i'm like going there to learn about things i already know. but nevertheless, i think i'd pick up something cool there!

oh i've got my final score. 1 a1, 4 a2s, 3 b3s, and 1 b4. i guess i'm pretty satisfied with them though. i knew i could do better, but i guess, things happen for a reason and i got these results for a reason! yeap, so i'm quite happy with them. like from 3 As, to 5 As. guess thats a great improvement.

so yes. oh right, joanne showed me a really nice song today. the band's like hellogoodbye. i found out about them today. i guess i can say that they're pretty good. go check it out (click on it, NOW :D) . so yeah, they're really good. really, trust me. the song's really nice. so yeah!

enjoy the song guys (:

2009-10-26T17:48:00.001+08:00

hello people! i'm looking for a new skin. please help me okay!

2009-10-26T16:25:00.002+08:00

Fatigue is winning the battle yet again.

yeah, i'm tired. i ran 2k, and played soccer with scary sji people today. ohoh, i met cool sji people. they're like cross country people. i think their names were like uhh, dont know. i only could remember this guy called seth. but they're scary, running 2.4 in 8 mins. scary, but i guess i could do that, if i wanted to. so i'm starting my training already! thats why i ran 2k today haha.

hmm, so fish is like pressing me to post everyday. so well, i'll try my best, for my faithful readers (: (woah i actually have readers)

so yes. yesterday, sunday! haha we almost spent like 1000 bucks on winter clothing. i got a really nice black jacket but its like polyester, but its quite nice though. so yeah, my sunday. i really wanna watch imagine that though. oh well!

so today, hmmm, results. i swore i could have done much better for history. i got 2 A1s, 6 B3s, and 1 B4. out of the 3 B3s, they were all 69. do you know how irritating that is.

so yeah, i went to island creamery with ervin and oscar to try and cheer up. like oscar ot 1/25 for one of the components of the lit paper, which is really sad. but he did so much better than me though. 2 As, 7 Bs. amazing eh? how am i gonna go to acjc like that. oh well.

so yeah, soccer was tiring. really tiring. woah that brings me back to my first paragraph. oh well.

so yes, training has started. about 2km everyday, just for this week, then if i still can continue i'd go with 2km everyday, but with gym workout/squash/swimming/hardcore run every 2 days. i guess i'll go on with 2km everyday for 2 weeks, then rest for a week, then continue with 2km every week, and after that the proper workout scheme.

oh well, oh yes. i'm gonna give a review of our teachers this year, but i wont list out like the worst teacher or anything. so i'm gonna give like so called unofficial rewards to teachers, so look out for that!

alright, so thats it.

2009-10-21T19:59:00.002+08:00

hello people!

YES. EXAMS'RE OVER I'M SO HAPPY HAHAHAHAH. *SLAP*

i was like feeling so hyper after we left that class. LIKE OVERLY HYPER. how's about screaming like anything, randomly slapping and hitting and hugging people? :D

hahah so yeap! i spent my day playing soccer, and watching a movie.

i was so relieved after the soccer game, like all the stress drained out. but i think i've still got some, so i guess squash on friday would get it all out! haha, soccer was kinda screwed up. i couldnt play exactly, and failed to use a new 'technique' defending today haha.

and i missed to goals. like one on each side of the post.

ohoh, and finding a field today was damn screwed up, we like had to travel all over the place just to find one. i dont exactly know how to express it, so i'll just leave it as us walking and taking alot of buses (:

so yeap! then after that we caught cloudy chance of a meatballs. so i'm gonna give a review of this movie now!

ohoh okay. as i promised, i said there'd be new things. cos this season is a watching of movies and kinda stuff, i'm gonna give reviews for whatever movie i watched!

well, cloudy chance of a meatballs. hmmm, it has an interesting title, so it kinda caught our attention. the show was retarded. however, the storyline was really good. like i must say, it just tells us, to be ourselves and stuff like that. the storyline is actually somewhat similar to chicken little, if you didnt know. but nevertheless, the show was just so brilliant. i'm so happy the man didnt die! haha, i would be sad if he died though. and yeah, good vs evil as always, love story as always, etc etc etc. but what can i say about the movie - simply great.

rating : 3.7/5

so yeap! then after that, uhhh, we went to like get something to eat at plaza sing. haha, i had to leave early. stupid curfew at 6. i was kinda pissed when mummy said that. like wth? 6 oclock curfew? comeon. normally it'd be 7, and now you're telling me 6. other people get to go home at like what, 9. and you're telling me 6. oh well.

hmmm, so that was my day! ohoh, i'm gonna stay up the whole night tonight, so for those who wanna join me you'd better join me!

2009-10-20T15:03:00.002+08:00

hello world.

yes, i haven't been posting. stupid exams. well honestly, for this round i think i was a bit stressed up. stress. that stupid thing created by our human brains. i think the only way to get rid of it, is to just slow down our world. yeah.

hmmm, so i think i'll give a review for the exams right now!
english - my goodness, i'm screwed. my compo was terrible, but paper 2 wasn't that hard though.
chinese paper 1 - well, its too long
math- haha, easy easy!
science - challenging, but i could do it
history - hmmm, rather satisfying. but i think i could have done better
literature - it was great, wrote 10 pages (:

and yes, geog today. well on monday i was kinda stressed up, trying to remember about global warming, and the greenhouse effect. the natural process whereby it warms up planet earth, or something like that. but geog today was quite alright though. if i had not studied the other topics, i'd die.

so yes, chinese and dnt tomorrow. well i dont feel like studying anymore. but unless i would want to feel that sense of achievement tomorrow, i think i'd better study later

hmmm, as you can see, i've been posting quite a few videos before this post. those videos are found randomly and some of them have been recommended by others. so yeap! enjoy guys. go on, watch them. get a good laugh, especially for the rather fag -like person. (watch! trust me, it'd be great)

so yeash. after exams during the holidays, i'm gonan try to run to kap from my house, which is near macritchie reservoir. Who's up for it? the run would be about 9km, less than that. but nevertheless, tiring. so you guys have to train okay. but please someone, run with me okay? (:

yes, i'm gonna go hardcore exercising during after exams. so dont freak out if you see a buff kid (: jkjk! haha, i'm just doing it, for passion. oh well.

oh i suddenly feel like talking about my oh so fail tennis attempt. yes, i tried tennis with ben tam last week. let me tell you this : TENNIS IS HARD. well it's hard cos i'm sort of like adapted to the squash strokes. but its kinda easy once you get used to it i guess. but i did quite a few tyco backhands, which like just made him so amused with it. but i made him lose 3 tennis balls though. all of them flew to who knows where. but we got 3 tennis balls back, somehow. but i don't think they were the same ones though.

so yeap, its gonna be hardcore exercise. how's about 2.4km everyday, with squash/proper run/swim/gym workout every 2 days with it?

You might as well leave
You might as well let me know now
You might as well go, go, go
I never wanna see your face round here anymore
Cause it's a breakdown, a breakdown
Where do we go from here?
It's a breakdown, a breakdown

Forever the Sickest Kids - Breakdown

2009-10-17T16:54:00.001+08:00

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2009-10-14T18:53:00.000+08:00

WATCH THIS.

2009-10-13T19:53:00.001+08:00

WATCH

2009-10-11T22:41:00.001+08:00

found this randomly haha, enjoy guys (:

2009-10-09T18:49:00.000+08:00

WATCH NOW

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