here i am, praising God for his goodness.

havent posted for a long time. so now, i commemorate my 414th post.

too many things have happened since i stopped posting. i've got to start posting more.

i'll just go on with the main highlights!

ONE.

church camp!

oh how awesome was that time. it was really tiring though.

camp, was just a truly amazing experience that i cant describe. even though many things happened during camp, with all that spiritual warfare and stuff, still there were many breakthroughs. i felt it, and it happened. amen to that!

the games were like really really cool. like with our awesome log skills, we managed to get some game going for the games com okay! SO GAMES COM PEOPLE BE GRATEFUL.

there's, just too many things going through my mind now.

i'm just, so grateful towards God. he's, just so amazing. he's just the God who saves. he managed to make me break down finally on the last day. indeed, he is God. He is amazing. he lives, and he loves me and i love him.

camp, was just such an amazing time with God. i was really praying with Chris for like lots of people. and until now, my spirit's still so tired. i better get an early night haha

so yeap! after camp was like really spending time with uncle, aunt, wengwai and wengyan! it was really fun playing with them, talking with them, going out with them and most importantly, the shopping!

i got 2 tops from topman, some crocodile pants and some pants from hangten. but hangten pants are really good.

i feel that stores like giordano, bossini, and hang ten are really losing out now. with they're uhm, not too nice designs not alot of people actually buy their things. i'm sure their sales figures are really going down right now. so what can they do, if the people doesnt like it?

well, my train of thoughts come to an end here, for now. i'll try my best to post tomorrow okay!

-JoeL-
found a tunnel @ 10:14 PM

so this is how a sun burn feels like.

yeap, i'm down with sunburn. major sunburn.

went to wild wild wet with neighbours yesterday, and instead of getting a tan, (well i did get darker), i got sun burnt. all over my body.

it hurts bad, and its worse when people just keep on hitting it. well it doesnt hurt, its just, shocking. like someone hitting you real fast. oh well!

so yeap, i just caught a christmas carol, i guess its pretty cool. having a real similar storyline with ghosts of ex girlfriend's past. i shall give a review now!

Movie: A Christmas Carol

A Christmas Carol, is indeed a movie which leaves you satisfied in the end. In the beginning it gives you an effect which makes you think 'the guy sucks'. As the Ghosts appear, its rather scary. However, when he just turns over a new leaf it justs seems so satisfying. And therefore, it is actually a movie, worth watching.

Rating: 3/5

OHOH. lifeng kept pulling my shirt, like joanne when they're scared. its really weird having a 20 year old( i think) woman pulling your shirt. weird.

okay i dont wanna write anymore, bye.

-JoeL-
found a tunnel @ 11:06 PM

the first part of the post shall go out to ashley, as requested.

YOU'RE AWESOME.

happy now?

haha, well, i had the greatest time of my life yesterday. i laughed the crap out of myself. the next paragraph shall explain how the events lead to me laughing the crap out of me.

well recently, kenneth, ashley, joanne and i have reunited, as the awesome four neighbours haha. like we could go back till when we were all small and i was that stupid guy, but thats not the point. the thing is we have been meeting up, going from house to house talking, catching up, alot. well its really nice, telling each other our personal lives sort of thing to each other. it just brings us together again, oh how i miss those times, when we were small.

it would be really awesome if we could just travel back in time, remembering who we were.

were.

but what matters now is that we've been having fun (: we're like hanging out quite alot now, i think. heh. but its really cool.

so yesterday, we all came over, and played the awesome taiti, were i won i think. a few games. and then we were bored, so we played indian poker! ohmy it was fantastic, even though there were only four of us. in order for kenneth no make me change my card, he had to eat the pancake, and uhh, what else did he do? forgot heh.

but it was so cool. we played indian poker for like forever i think.it was really fun. like when i had an ace, kenneth made me change and then i got another ace and he got a 3 or something, it was so damn funny.

and the way ashley laughed. ohmy goodness, you'd die laughing! as she has a jaw problem ( i have no idea how it works) she laughs like this : ' HEHEHEHE ' and when she laughed yesterday she snorted .

i am so sorry for posting that Ashley.

ohyes, so it was like retarded. nothing could describe how much fun we had yesterday. it was, magical. indeed it was. it was such an awesome day. days like these, dont come easily. i enjoyed every moment yesterday. oh how great it was (:

so yeap, kenneth has his choir sing out concert tomorrow. it kinda sucks, cos i cant go as mummy says i cant. dont know why D:

sometimes i feel that mummy thinks that when we get to go out so much, we go out of control and then bad stuff happen, and we're not mature enough to think for ourselves. oh mother, i do not understand you sometimes. but i'm sure you have a reason though, cos you're my mummy.

plants vs zombies, oh wow. i must say, that its kinda addictive. i finished the game, but not done with the mini games heh.

somehow i feel that people are just not being themselves anymore. there just seems to be a hidden part of them, which they dont reveal, or try not at least. sigh. i'm sorry, ______.

why do people just change, and not be themselves? i feel, that they're just trying to fit into our changing world, i think. it really breaks my heart to see people, being someone else i know they're not. i mean lik if its changing for the better of course its a good thing. it just sucks when someone, reveals they're dirty side and then just sticks with that attitude towards people.

oh well! got cyber wellness thing on wednesday and thursday heh. how do i get to beatty secondary school!i think its really near our house, but how to get there. that indeed is a question, that is questionable. okay was just weird.

11 days to church camp! oh how exciting. CAMP CAMP CAMP. haha but i've got to go for pre-camp, so 10 days!

haha i just cant wait for camp.

have been reading manga recently. it seems quite exciting.

haha manga and plants vs zombies are just distracting me from my post. so i'll leave you guys with a song, to enjoy. in fact, its one of my personal favourites (:

-JoeL-
found a tunnel @ 12:28 AM

damnit.

the guilt thing, confidence problems, and decision making is getting from bad to worse.

oh its 130. oh well.

like, i dont know why. those stupid things i've done in the past. i, just can't seem to forget them. i know that i'm forgiven, for whatever dumb thing i've done to others, and stuff like that but somehow, it just keeps coming back. ohmy i feel horrible.

confidence problems. what else could i say? i somehow just need the reaffirmation everytime i do something. its just dumb, but i can't seem to help it. how now brown cow.

decision making. I CANT EVEN DECIDE WHETHER I WANT TO WATCH ASTRO BOY WHEN THERE'S A FREE TICKET, POPCORN AND DRINK. oh my wth is wrong with me.

this is just dumb. sigh.

-JoeL-
found a tunnel @ 1:11 AM

hello world.

today we had some prefect thing. it was at smu haha, ohoh. smu's like so cool. they've like got this basement which connects all the schools, its quite amusing. like super cool haha.

so yeah, during the event well, i was supposed to be at some registration booth. here was what i said like alot:

" Good Morning, may i know what school you are from? Are you Mdm/Mr ________. Could you sign here please?"

" Here is your resource pack, booklet, folder and name tag which you are required to wear throughout the event. Please proceed to the Auditorium over there, thank you."

How retarded's that.

well, i was kinda stumbling alot. its, because of my major confidence issues. yes people, i suffer from confidence issues, which is not really good. it really sucks. i know i can do it but somehow, i always need someone to reassure me, that everything would just go well. thank God that Alex was with me and he knew how to act in these kind of situations.

gone, like Frank Sinatra
like Elvis and his mom
like AL Pacino's cash nothing lasts in this life
my highschool dreams are gone
my childhood sweets are gone
life is a day that doesn't last for long

that song's really amusing. like, gone.what would you do when, everything's gone? think about that people.

i'm not moving

i really like that song, the man who cant be moved. its, a beautiful song. the tune's nice, lyrics are good. what more could i say?

my thoughts, could be like the nile river, almost never ending.

is there a light to every tunnel?

thats a really good question. think about it. do you think so? OF COURSE THERE IS - with God . i really dont understand the Big Bang Theory. its like, putting a toyota, blowing it up and hoping a Lamborghini to appear. like, seriously. wth?

oh well. my brain, hurts. like it seriously hurt alot today. throughout the whole event it hurt like so bad. except on the bus, where it hurt exceptionally alot. its like i was trying to make myself relax, and get rid of all the thoughts in my mind. and when i thought of things, it hurt quite alot.

if you had a headache before, you'd know what i'm talking about.

oh and on the bus ride like someone drop her stuff and then when i picked some stuff up for her when i woke up she was like 'thank you for your kindness'. i had no idea what i did. like i think i smiled dont know. my brain hurt too much. i felt like puking on the bus. it was so hard trying to control myself.

there happens to be too many facebook groups, which actually is true. for example, ' i hate untangling my earphones', and 'mum/dad, i got your point. you can stop talking now '. its, really true. aint it?

daddy's birthday tomorrow. i hope, he likes the book heh. its some english book, to help him with his english :D haha, got it the english thingy today at smu.

my brain's too tired. cant think of anything else to write.



here's the video i promised, by You Me At Six. they're really good. listen okay!

-JoeL-
found a tunnel @ 9:49 PM

hello.

my life, apparently has been going rather screwed up now.

like, i've been getting the weirdest dreams ever.

and please note, i hardly dream. its, getting weirder and weirder.

oh well. recently i listened to You Me At Six, they're really good. at the end of this post i'll put up a song by them. make sure you listen okay!

so yeap. ohoh i've also been playing plants vs zombies. its quite fun actually. but too much of it is just, weird.

i just realised my posts have been getting shorter and shorter.

i just came back from some smu event briefing where i'm down for. got to wake up at like 6 tomorrow. so, tiring. i think i'd just die. i'm like exhausted.

the weather has been just simply screwed up.

forgot it i have no inspiration to say anything else. enjoy the song.

-JoeL-
found a tunnel @ 3:36 PM

Apparently, my blog posts are sort of in demand. well, i guess, i'll do a post today (:

hmm, today we had barker carnival. honestly, i didnt feel that it was that great.

i started out the day with the band. and then suddenly michael asks me to play the bells, like on the day it self. michael what are you trying to do, do you want to kill me. and yeah, i did, play quite a few wrong notes. so yes, i started off the carnival on a bad note.

next i had no money at all. i lost my tickets. seriously wth man. but luckily, joanne had money, people gave me tickets and joel leow gave me 3.50 so i had a couple of tickets to do some stupid things. i didnt really play alot of games, all i did was like uhh, go around the stalls, selling cookies muffins and stuff like that, picking up pellets. oh how great is that.

and the last part of the day, sitting at some information counter cum lost and found place. and then fish started to piss me off. well, all i did was like just go around telling people not to touch the Lamborghinis, and direct people to places.

well, i think like what led to a stupid and boring carnival for me was:
1) i had no cash. this meant i couldnt play games, with friends, without friends and stuff like that. and it also meant i couldn't exactly buy any food or drinks or anything. so yeah.

2) not exactly alot of friends to play with. like when after that group of keane and joanne and barnabas and other people came they played games together. i was like, with oscar alone. and we also had no cash. but even if we did have cash, there wasnt like much people to play with. so it kinda sucked.

and therefore, carnival for me wasnt that fun. i shall play plants vs zombies to cheer me up (:

-JoeL-
found a tunnel @ 8:27 PM