I can finally say that I am halfway through Os(;

The papers have been alright so far, I guess. Not dying too much. Just hope the best would come out.

Anyway, onto the movie In Time. Fantastic move. Fantastic. Brilliant. Wonderful. Amazing movie. The movie had a very strong plot, and very strong themes being displayed. Good piece of work.

However, a lot of things set me thinking because of the movie. Like it displays the Capitalist' way of work. And then what they were actually doing was to make it into Communist. You guys have to watch the movie to find out!

Geog P2 and History's next. Gonna be tough but hey, with God all thing's possible(:

-JoeL-
found a tunnel @ 11:51 PM

In conjunction with my English examination tomorrow, I will try my best to speak in proper English.

Today's post will be circled around this word:

Ferly

Noun -
1. Something unusual, strange, or causing wonder or terror.
2. Astonishment, wonder

Adjective -
1. Unexpected; Strange; Unusal


I had had half a thought, at the outset, of telling him about the ferly, my glimpse of the palace. But I couldn't bring myself to it.
-- Clive Staples Lewis and Fritz Eichenberg, Till We Have Faces: A Myth Retold
Lord, ye'll have all the folk staring as if we were some ferly.
-- Margaret Oliphant, Kirsteen



Alas, the time has come.

I could remember what I was doing a year ago. A year ago my exams had just finished, and I felt a great sense of satisfaction, heaving a sigh of relief. My results have came back, and my effort which was poured out across my examination marks. What a great feeling it was.

And now, the time has come. I prepared ten years of my education for this. I am not willing to give up now, and I won't. I have God on my side too (: Ferly. I can't seem to use the word. Ah well. I look at myself, my grades. Smile.

That was 4 days ago.

English. Math P1.

The first week of exams are about to end. There has been a lot going through my mind. I've been wondering. What would I do if, I told you I loved you? No one in general. I remembered how much it sucked when it becomes one-sided.

Awkward. That's how it is.

I've just realised. I need to find someone beautiful, and not hot. That's how it is. And someday I would find that someone. Someone. Haha it feels weird talking about these kinda stuff. I thought that people who whine about these kinda stuff are really gay. I guess its just quite fun to talk about it hehe.

Takes your mind off what's coming next. It's nice to live in denial. For the moment.

Thank God for the papers that has just gone by.

-JoeL-
found a tunnel @ 8:05 PM

I am annoyed at it. I hate it. I detest it.

I'm just so annoyed with myself. Why wasn't I smarter? Why did I have to depend on tuition so much?

Mummy's angry because I spend a lot of her cash on tuition. At least I'm not wasting it. It's tearing me apart. I want to do well. I want need to get my 7 points.

Oh God, why is it so hard? I'm in utter distress, and I am feeling miserable. The sky cries with me, while trying to get myself to be better at my studies.

Now I don't just have to get an A1 for Physics. I better f-ing get one. So sorry for the use of language, but I need it. On my wall, I have post-its all around telling me what I need to do, and need to learn. And I better, get my A1. I must.

Mummy and Daddy are spending too much on my tuition fees. It's crazy. It's retarded. It's absurd. I am so going to work, to pay Mum and Dad back for my tuition fees. And when I get rich, I will buy Dad a Mercedes. I am grateful to my parents for taking this sacrifice to do this. But, Mummy doesn't know how to control her temper. When she scolds, it is not to discipline but rather to relieve the stress she is under. You're not the only who's stressed up, woman.

Sigh. Oh God, I don't know what to do. I'm lost. I can't find meaning in this. Would you, give Mum more clients so that she would be able to remove the deficit, and to just support this family.

Sleep. I need sleep. I'm falling into the pit of fatigue. And at the bottom of the pit, there are the sharp edged rocks of insanity.

God. I need you. I need to depend on you. I need your strength oh God. Please protect Daddy too, as he goes into China.

-JoeL-
found a tunnel @ 12:10 AM

"Tick, tick, tick," and the clock speaks gently into our ears.

We can run away from almost anything in our lives except one thing - Time. It is that one thing that is always running ahead of us. A competitor, who we cannot overtake. A person, who we cannot beat. Time is always winning, and indeed it is not on our side.

With only 3 weeks left till the begin of our O levels, I start to ponder about a few things. Why am I taking this exam? If I screw up, then what happens next? Oh how is JC going to be like?

And then I tell myself "Dude, stop thinking. Study. You can think about them later".

It is things like these, which have such a great impact on our lives. We either make it, or break it.

Despite all the comments above, somehow, I don't feel worried, or that stressed. A little tired perhaps, but the anxiety does not win the battle. Perhaps this is what happens, when you're rooted in the love of God(:

The love of God is just simply amazing. He saved me, cured my hurt. He's the King of the world, the King of everythinggggg. Do you know Him?

That aside, I'm getting excited to finish this race. Cos after Os, Imma be a buff man. This statement testifies that I will not be lazy after O levels. If I get lazy and fat I will.. be very fat. I can't think of a proper consequence. But yes, it's training mode once again after Os(:

I'd be trying to touch my piano more. With my fingers running along the keys, I hope to produce, music. Beautiful music.

That is all the time I have today. Good luck to you, to whoever reads this.

-JoeL-
found a tunnel @ 11:07 PM

As I go blog walking, one thing that struck me that a lot of us feel hurt in our lives. People staring at us with judgmental eyes, people being hypocrites, people being mean to each other.

Why oh God, have you made humans like that?

And then I remember, its that with God, and our author and perfecter of our faith, we are made perfect(:

Yeah.

Anw I've been starting to get violent. Frig. Not cool.

I. Need. To. Stop. Sparring.

The race is ending, and the time to get buff and to not regret is coming.

-JoeL-
found a tunnel @ 11:28 PM

Yes hello world. I am here, with nothing in mind, and I shall allow my thoughts to flow.

Today I decided to study English, and learnt a few new words and phrases, and learnt (I think) how to use them:

Jolted, Ravenous, Bellowed, Contempt, Impregnated, Ether, Teeming, Prattle.

I shall attempt to write this post with every single word being used. Here goes nothing.

I was teeming with excitement when I saw food, as I felt Ravenous, craving for some curry. I bellowed my voice throughout the room, screaming the word until the ground shook.

However, the food smelt like it was saturated with Ether. Surely, the maid has been flooding her infected wound with Ether again. Giving out a sense of unsatisfaction, I told my maid sternly with a sense of contempt that I would not even eat a single grain of rice on the plate of the smell of ether was not removed.

Being a foreign worker, her English was not on the same level as ours. Her command of her language was so weak that she seemed like she was prattling all the way.

Feeling even more enraged, I stormed off. However, something made me stop in my steps. She fainted.

Her sudden lost of consciousness jolted us all.

A story made out of words that I just learnt today. Oh and apparently, Ryan impregnated Charlotte Yang, and she's a Mum now(:

And that is all I have for today.

"Cos everyday I'm studying"

And let the music surround your room now.

-JoeL-
found a tunnel @ 11:11 PM

I feel like posting today. I don't know what to say, but I'll allow my mind to just take course(:

So yes hmmm... I feel smarter all already! Hehe, well apparently I could do a slightly challenging Amath paper today, so I feel all smart. It is a good thing, feeling all encouraged to do even better.

Apparently I found out that I hardly talk to anyone already. My social life has been affected adversely because I have been spending a lot of time on my studies. Oh why thank God it's not dead. But it just seems, that conversing with people feels a little hard now. Last time, it used to be so natural. I could link from one topic to the next, and could just start a conversation with a snap of the finger. But now, it just seems that my ability the converse, has been affected by quite a bit. It's like, America being in debt. Haha I have no idea how that links, but that's the way it is!

America is in such debt. It's just so interesting how countries, superpowers like that states can be in such a state, and we've just been having a perception where America is a great country, with Obama.

Speaking of America, I've been watching the show "The Kennedys". It is quite a good show indeed! I'm learning History through the show hehe. With the Cuban Missle Crisis, Berlin Wall, and the Policy of Appeasement being expressed in the show it affirms my understanding in those topics. So that's good haha.

Omygosh I'm friggin' doing nerd talk. A lot of my sentences have been linked to studies in one way or another. I can't be a nerd ): But I guess I'll just accept that fact, and live a non-nerd non-stress life after Os!

37 Days more to make a difference.

I wonder to myself, whether I am able to step up to the challenge to actually succeed in it. But a conversation with Hao Yi today reminded me to never ever ever forget God in this (: I felt somewhat encouraged after that. I guess that's right, where we can't do Os on our own, for ourselves but we have to do this for God. If not, what purpose does it serve?

A person who does it for himself might say that he's studying to get a good job, a good life, a good family, bang bang bang and stuff like that. But what's next?

Apparently, a lot of Christians in the world have been just, proving that all other religions are 'wrong' and Christianity is the 'right' one. I question that. Should we not just share the love of God around with the world, where we overflow His love out of us, and just spread it around the world? Hmmm. I can't say anything, for I do not know much heh.

Love is a hard thing to do. Oh God, teach me how to love S_______ despite his annoyingness.

To love, where defined by the world is a feeling. Love is not a feeling, but it is an action . It is an expression. Many people equate the fuzzy feeling, the butterflies that pop out in your stomach and the heartbeats that accelerate oh-so-quickly when they see a person as love. Well for me that ain't la. Cos God defines love in a whole new different way(;

The Agape love that He gives me, and us is just so awesome.. Haha I can't describe it. God is love(:

So yes from Math, I have somehow linked it to God. Hehe should I take Knowledge Inquiry? It'd make me lose a bit of hair, having to think so much. Heh well it ends here, time to study History for a bit.

I'm just gonna quote this for fun.

"Efficiency is intelligent laziness."
- I don't know who it's by.

Let us be efficient! HAHA.

-JoeL-
found a tunnel @ 11:39 PM